Keeping birth plans a secretI haven't told too many people my birth plans, but from time to time someone will ask, and I catch myself everso casually talking about having a UC, as if everyone does it and it's widely accepted. Usually after I "spill the beans", I have this weird thing happen where I feel like, "oh no, I just told them a juicy secret that no one is supposed to know". I'm often met with weird looks and tons of questions. Most of the time I'm offguard and feel like I'm being put on trial for my choices, and then I get all defensive and usually mention how I have have 2 successful homebirths with a midwife and this time I'm in another state and can't find a supportive midwife so I'm doing it by myself...this usually ends the conversation. Truth is, I had this UC planned before I even conceived, but I don't tell people cuz they'd think I was outright nuts...but I guess if they factor in the fact that it's either go to the hospital or do it myself, that then my choice for UC is justified. There's also a hospital 2 miles away, so I guess this eases questioner's fears.
Last weekend my aunt stopped over and was talking about my birth plans. I used to live with this woman for a few months when dc #1 was a baby, and she just about cringed at my lifestyle choices (homebirth, child-led weaning, family bed, veganism, etc.). She asks how I'm doing and if I've found a midwife. Basically I sold her the story of not being able to find a supportive homebirth midwife so I'm just gonna do it myself. This news probably threw her in a whirl, but thankfully she didn't start on me about all normal fears surrounding the act of giving birth (i.e. needing medical assistence to do it). Well anyways, just a few days ago I had a yucky nightmare about her yelling at me for my choice to UC. I had actually dreaded seeing her while I was pregnant, since I just *knew* she'd have something stupid to say. Anyway, thankfully she didn't take the conversation too far, cuz that last thing I need is extended-family-induced stress.
Like a lot of you mamas, I'm busy awaiting these last few days/weeks of pregnancy...I'm so axious to get this labor started and to finally meet this baby. Tonite I burned some sage and was busy painting my belly cast. Baby was happy right along with me cuz my belly was be-boppin' all over