whimsy/Jennifer ... that stinks. I'm sorry.
I fully intend to have a VBAC one way or another. I'm just not sure how its going to happen. I'm hoping to maybe find a doula who is either a non-practicing midwife or a midwife-in-training to labor with me at home. Then if I have the guts (or rather, if dh gets it together), I might consider having a sort of UBAC (with doula there, so I don't know how truly UBAC that would be). Or, I'll labor at home and go to the hospital when I'm close to pushing (or pushing). Hospital is only 5-10 minutes away, so it wouldn't be the worst thing.
My biggest fear, honestly, is that my next child will have blood-type incompatibility jaundice as did ds. And ds was pretty darn sick. And such jaundice appears at birth or immediately thereafter (he was under the bili-lights within 30 hours of birth) and can get bad fast (as ds's did). So I guess, ultimately, I'd like to be in a place that would be able to treat the jaundice immediately if necessary, but at the same time, insure the greatest likelihood of a VBAC.
You know, I just have to relax. Who knows what things will be like in 2006? I just have to see where we're at. But all this uncertainty bugs the poop out of me.