Lazuli, I seem to remember a certain woman in Minnesota who posted something AWFULLY DARN SIMILAR to your post last weekend...
It is horrible, the waiting game. Especially when it seems like nothing at all is happening or changing. You go to the dr/mw and they tell you to not be concerned but let's do all these tests anyway. Yeah ok let's not be concerned! If you're not concerned why do you have to have a machine tell you that everything is all right?
My advice, for what it's worth, which might not be a lot since I have a hard time listening to it myself: if you want to crawl into bed, do it, you're not going to have the chance later. If your house isn't clean, who gives a rat's a*, life will go on even if your parents and in-laws aren't going to like it. If they give you crap about it and you feel like being snippy and rude to them about their expectations, I think you've got enough license to let them have a piece of your mind, and your dh should back you up. If you feel desperate and like bawling, bawl. Tears are one of the body's way of releasing spare quantities of hormones. (My dad used to work across the hall from one of the major tear researchers of our time.) GOOD FOR YOU for changing the answering machine message, and no, your husband hasn't been home for no good reason, this is a hard time in your life and him supporting you is vital.
I thought we'd be having a baby today, I was having regular contractions starting at 4 AM, but I managed to fall back asleep and they went away. Having random ones today.
sistermama Sarah! Really now! *nudge* If you believe Pat Robertson was right, you can just send back all of those bumper stickers we sent you
Think I'll go have a shower.