Well, we've been tandem nursing for four weeks now! I'm proud to be doing it, but it is still not easy. (Sigh)
The jealousy is diminishing daily. During the day, Dd now tells me that she will nurse 'as soon as the baby is finished' but usually loses interest when the baby is done. Nights are still more difficult, but we have got down to one waking to nurse and then the early morning session.
The problems arise when she wakes at the same time as I'm nursing the baby. I tell her that she has to wait, but she breaks her heart and I feel terrible. It's like she can't cope with it when she's sleepy and at her most vulnerable. I guess eventually she'll come to terms with waiting but it's hard hearing her so upset.
I'm also finding myself feeling less patient with her about the whole thing - somehow nursing her feels grating and uncomfortable, whereas the baby is fine, although when I analyse it, the baby has a worse latch than dd. I suppose it's just nature telling me which child should take priority.
I'm just feeling strange, thinking back to how anxious I was to not let her wean because I was pregnant, yet now having little patience with having her nurse. (not that I show it too much, I try to stay calm and nurturing, even though often I don't feel that way!)
Just venting, there are few people to talk to IRL about this!