well i had a miscarriage yesterday, at 6 weeks. maybe my body just wasnt ready to be pg again, my littlest is only 10 months. maybe it just isnt the right time in my life - it really isnt. maybe the baby wasnt developing normally. who knows. i have such a confusing mixture of emotions!! i was trying to be happy - i love babies - but i was also very anxious about being pg, with a baby by a diff father, while i still miss my babies' dad, and my partner didnt really want a baby anyways. hes in college right now. i was so concerned about my littlest missing out on the one on one attention his big sister got. i felt as if he was being shortchanged. so i feel devastated, yet relieved? i dunno, but i feel guilty for feeling like it is maybe for the best. i guess this gives me an opportunity to make things right in my life before considering another baby.
so I guess im out of the club.
so I guess im out of the club.








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