Poem - Daddy

[Calm]

We put his ashes around the roots of a citrus tree, so he could 'grow' into the tree. This helps to understand one of the lines of this poem.

Daddy
Daddy can you see me
Spelling like a pro?
Daddy will you watch me
Tie my laces in a bow?
Daddy like you told me
I am reaching for the sky
Daddy like you showed me
I live like I may die

I hold the globe upon my palm
The stars around my face
I put the thunder and the lightening
In my pocket…just in case
In big shoes I shall tip toe
Through this ugly/pretty game
Falling, climbing, screaming
It’s all winning just the same

Daddy did you see me
Give your eulogy?
Daddy were you thinking
How proud you were of me?
Daddy did you hear
The splitting of my soul?
Daddy did you take with you
My last shred of control?

Engaging in some now and then
I’ve lost my ‘maybe later’
Indelible. Inspiring
I am a frown creator
The citrus tree, although quite nice
Is somewhat inconclusive
It never offers options
Or gives me new perspective

So here I sit
With quill in grasp
Awaiting some reflection
An indication
That my frustration
Is just my warped perception

So
Daddy, did you see me
Slowly lose my mind?
And
Daddy, can you hear me
Those quiet times I cry?
My
Daddy, I can’t tell
If you really can not see
Oh
Daddy, only you
Can make me want to be.


I miss him every day.

[Ms. Mom]

Thank you, how beautiful. Did you write it? It's simply amazing - gave me shivers.

[Calm]

Hi Jacque. Thank you very much! Yeah, I wrote it, writing is my emotional conduit. I still love the rhyming poems, though they are not very fashionable these days.

[Ms. Mom]

Writing is such a wonderful way to work thorough your grief. Thank you again for sharing it really moved me

[Raven]

You write very well! Thank you so much for sharing this poem with us

[Carli]

Absolutely beautiful!
We too spread my dad's ashes under a lemon tree we planted in his memory.

Thank you for sharing that

[lisamarie]

WOW, such beautiful, powerful words! Thank you for sharing it with us.

Hugs~

Lisa

[Calm]

Thank you, all. It is a strange time of year for us. The anniversary of dad's passing in Nov, then the anniversary of my nephew in Dec, who was killed by a car when he was 5 years old. The good news is Christmas was happy last year, and I know it will be happy this year!

Thanks for hearing me, and allowing me a place to put myself with this.

[Mom4tot]

Calm~ that is beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes.

You are a talented writer

[China white]

Wow....................just wow.

*Never* have I read anything that even comes close to capturing the way I feel about my father's passing ~ until now.
Verses 3 & 6 are mirrors of my soul ~ the inner turmoil I struggle with daily. Although the adult in me understands the fact that he is no longer 'here', the little girl in me refuses to be comforted; refuses to accept the finality of his being.

Thank you, Calm ~ discovering your poem was such a gift to me today. Thank you for sharing, and I just want you to know ~ I understand what you're feeling.



Michelle