6 weeks + 1 day
Thanks for starting the new thread. I am indeed still sick. It's not getting any better. I'm sometimes waking up in the middle of the night feeling on the verge of vomitting and having to go eat crackers.
nym - I really hope your BP stays down.
I'm sorry to hear about your niece.
Schatz - I am so sorry about your friend. I can understand the feeling of wanting her to not have to deal with that as well as the twinge of guilt for getting to be pregnant.
Tish - I'm sure everything is moving along fine. If you have a gut feeling about it, then that's one thing, but if you're just having little tugging questions that come up, then that's totally normal. The thing that helped me in my first pregnancy was something I learned in yoga, actually. Let yourself consider your fears as they come up, but don't hold on to them. Let them go. When a new fear comes up, examine it, consider what you might do if that were to happen, how you might react or cope, then simply release it, because there's nothing you can do now.
The whole world now knows that I am pregnant, despite our plans not to tell everyone for a while. Jon's aunt is in our state this week and called to have us come visit, but it's a two hour drive that I'm not up to with being nauseous constantly and Jon's incredibly busy anyway. So he felt that he HAD to tell them I was pregnant because of course him being busy isn't really a good enough of an excuse. So now his whole family knows and he had to call his mom and dad to tell them since the extended family knew. These were the people we really didn't want to tell in case something happened because they are typically gossipy and ill-mannered and not the sort of people you want knowing about your miscarriage if, god forbid, you (or I as the case may be) have one. My step brother and sister still don't know, however. I suppose I should take care of that. hmmm...
Haven't taken a belly shot in a while as I don't think I'm growing visibly at all, though I feel a tad bloated in my jeans. We took the one photo at 4 + weeks and I'm sure we'll get back to them in a few more weeks. With our photos last time, once I actually started growing, I grew noticeably every week. I carry it all in the belly and my butt & thighs & arms just get a tad padded. Jon always makes fun of this and holds his hand up to cut off the belly because it just looks like regular me without it.
We decided to give birth here at our house instead of at my mom's, which is a nice relief. I called one midwife and need to set up an appointment to interview her. We're interviewing another one too, but I haven't gotten a hold of her yet. We have time. I have other things to worry about anyhow now that it's October. I totally flaked my son's ped visit yesterday. I had him watch a movie while I laid on the floor trying to sleep next to him instead. I haven't been cleaning or doing much of anything. Periodically a big wave of nausea hits me and I'm left on all fours trying not to throw up. Then Jon has to rush in with crackers and water. I should be eating constantly instead, but nothing is appetizing at all. And eating makes me nauseous too anyway so it's like I'm on a bread and water diet as it is. I tried beans and rice for a couple of days, but now the sound of that is nauseating as well. Potatoes are working out okay, but I keep thinking I need some frigging protein. This really, really, really sucks. And it's exactly how it was with my last pregnancy. Although, it may be worse, I can't decide or remember accurately.
Anyway, so we're birthing here at our house and hoping that my mom makes it up in time, but hiring a midwife as well. We have to really save up the money for this, but I don't even know what it's going to cost. We'll find out when we do the interviews. I also want to rent a birth tub. Right now I can't really visualize the birth, but I know it's early and time I'm sure will help with that. I haven't signed up for prenatal yoga yet either, but I looked it up and the class that's close by is on Sunday mornings at 11:45 which with my fatigue and nausea does not at all sound doable. The other place that has them is much further away, but it's on Thursday nights, which sounds nicer. I'll probably wait awhile either way. My nausea has to subside somewhat before I attempt that. As it is, I was impressed with myself yesterday for getting out of the house for 30 minutes (box of crackers in the passenger seat of the car) while I returned library books, videos and paid rent.
Well now I've babbled on long enough. I should go inform my step-siblings that I'm pregnant via email.