I can totally relate!
I also feel like a loser

I feel afraid to tell most of my immediate family.
For about 2 years we lived with my parents when my son was about 8 months till about 2 years of age. And of course I have a sister and brother in law who just bought a 500K house and have thier kids' college educations paid for. It's hard to live in their shadows even though I could care less about things like that. Stability I care about, but I don't need the huge house. Just a house in general would be nice lol!!!
So I felt very embarrassed when telling my parents I was pregnant back in June. So much in fact I left it up to my 4 year old to break the news. For about a week he told them that I had a baby in my uterus and that he was going to be a big brother. They didn't get it!! They thought he was kidding!!! Finally they did and they were happy although my dad jokingly said "Another one to babysit!" but I just had this awful feeling he meant it

Plus we have a family plan on our cell phones (my dad's idea) and I owe them about $100. So how dare we ttc #2!!!! LOL!!!
By the way I just turned 30, my son just turned 4. It's time. Home owners or not it's time.
By the way I'm sure they expect that we're ttc (or WERE ttc !!) so pregnancy shouldn't come as a shock or disappointment. I just have this feeling all the time that I'm being watched and judged. Moving back with the folks for any amount of time kind of crushes your ego no matter how nice people are to you.
Take care,
Karen