Meli, first I would say to get in touch with a LLL
. They acutally have info about bfing and meds. Maybe there is a med that you can take that can allow you to still bf....
There *are* women at MDC who use a binky *and* swings. You want to desperately bf. Not *everyone* even in this group, cd! (cloth diaper) If I recall correctly, mamas say that AP is really being attentive to your babes needs. My observation is the mainstream parenting is all about the mamas convenience, AP is child centered. Noone here doubts that you aren't all about your child.
I'm praying to Jesus, the Prince of Peace on your behalf, Meli.
I was so busy with Mik and then trying to get myself roto rooted again,
that I forgot to reply to you.
People are a trip aren't they! There is *no* perfect baby...well, Jesus was a mother's dream I'm sure, but I mean good grief...
So, Henri has a good temperament! It bothers you if he's fussy. A mama doesn't like it when her baby isn't happy! Those comments like you should be glad...
I'm sure that the c/s comments
you. This also comes from a society now who has an alarming c/s rate. (you know yall c/s mamas, this is not a commentary on yall) But, coming from a place of education where you are its
Nancy, have you spoken to Pam? She's seems like a wonderful, nurturing woman and she of course understands where you're coming from as opposed to your family. Maybe it would help to talk through your feelings about labor with her. That was truly a long labor...
I'm sure that it had to be awfully exhausting and excruciating to have to labor for so long. I want to affirm you for having the courage to perservere in your homebirth, I'm sure, until it was best for you and Henri to transfer. I'm really in awe of the 40 hours. I was telling someone else about you! I was in labor for nine and ended up asking for nubaine!
Constipation: ask *Pam* once again about a solution! I'm in a different place from you, where I wanted the hb; but, b/c of my history with Jordan, I wasn't able to totally trust and leaned on my back up more than most hbers, I'm sure. Whereas someone would take Smooth Move tea w/o hesitation, I called to ask and of course,
they didn't know and recommended colace and so I just did it b/c having suffered with IBS, I'm in agony when I get locked up, although I wasn't thrilled about the propolyene glycol and dyes in it.
Last nights solution was after the colace, which the md recommends 2 in the am and 2 at night for a better response instead of 3 at once, after drink mag citrate, which usually works;but, I forgot since my IBS days, you gotta drink it quick and that usually softens everything up, which was an issue of fear for me b/c of fear of busting stitches. I'm not sure about a c/s; but, they probably, I remember after my ovarian surgery, they don't want you to strain. Well, after that and I was feeling blocked, he recommended dulcolax, lots of water and oat bran, and later this am success! Probably a combo. Poor Mik, I wonder if she got effected. She was wide open nursing this am.
Anyway, I wanted to share since I empathize and maybe something might help.
Ok, we *both* were heading for a wonderful hb. All excited and I remember how excited you were for me when I decided. The outcomes for both of us was not that. You transfered and ended up with a c/s. I hadn't delivered by the 26th, had a fever and then by the wheel or my cycles its was gettin or at 42 weeks, which they want you delivered by. I went for an appointment b/c I was scared and wanted to make sure Mik was ok and *never* came home! I was admitted and they induced me. Long story short after trying everything, we came down to having to use pit! You *know* I didn't want that! I was strapped down to and IV and a fetal monitor! There was *no* water at that point! I was *slammed* into active labor by that junk! NO! *not* magical NOT wonderful! *nothing* like * had imagined and dreamed! YES! here I was and they were going to *evict* Mikayla. I was robbed of the bloody show and the early labor without being drugged into it, and I wanted to be free of that fetal monitor! And pushing! I didn't feel like I'm woman hear me roar! I was like get her OUT! I though pushing was *worse* than labor! And then the mw (remember the one who was just sooooooo lovely when I started at the md practice? ), who was on call that night, had the nerve to say that subsequent babies could be 'late' as I sit there on the birth ball a pitocin prisioner somehow under the misconception that I could be kickstarted and taken off.
Right now you need to process *Henri's* birth. Don't think about Harriet's. Lemme tell ya. But you know, even through all you're feeling that every pregnancy and birth is different, even with the same mama.
You know that me and Katie can relate to you about your lost hb. I grieved when they admitted me and then once Mik came I set my focus on her. We wanted to get to this point for several years now, and then after Jordan dying to have Mik be alive and well, well....I hope that you never have to experience the joy of that b/c of the worst heartbreak you could ever bear. I did think the other day I felt robbed of the labor process. I focus on Mik and her getting know the world. I come from a different place tho. But, lemme tell ya, women take this whole process for granted, and so did I until things don't go the way you expect them....
I hope somehow you've been encouraged.
Praise God I'm roto rooted again, yall!
I feel good! Now, to see if I can do what I *planned* to yesterday! : eyesroll Bath for me and Mikayla
rest b/c I'm still sleepy, maybe after we're all bathed and I need to clean...I'm supposed to have company tomorrow.
\o/ my tail is feeling better today! My mamas best friend said itchin means healin. I need to soak the hemerrhoid; but, I can deal with that. My stuff being messed up was messin with my mind!
k...checking my email and all....