I know what you guys mean about them growing so fast. I'm so bittersweet about it all...I love that he's filling out and growing and doing so well on his mama's milk, but I'm already feeling like it's all going by too fast! This is my last newborn and I want to just soak it all up. Sometimes I just stare at him and wish I could capture these moments forever. Damn, I've been really hormonal lately, crying at the drop of a hat. Not in a sad way but in a sentimental way...
My weight loss seems to have stopped already, and I'm pretty darned bummed about it. I've only lost about 13 - 15 lbs and have 20 to go. I was really expecting the initial "drop like a rock" phase would last longer. But then, I was indulging in an awful lot of chocolate lately.
Soooo, I've cut down majorly on the sweets and snacking, and I've made an effort to go walking as often as possible. Slinging a baby while pushing a toddler is damn good exercise, especially if there's a hill involved. I was power walking yesterday with the kids and it felt really good to use those muscles. I just keep looking at my closet full of pre-pregnancy clothes with longing. But it looks like I'm going to have to give in and hit a cheap clothing store for some "in between" clothes. At least a pair of jeans. Right now I have two pairs of pants that fit, and one are khaki's - not really appropriate for this weather. Then I have a pair of sweat pants for lounging at home. And seriously, that's it for pants. So some shopping is definitely in order.
So, I dunno about you ladies, but I've been making a real effort to look half decent these days when I go out, and to GET out as often as I can. When I am still in jammies by noon or so, it makes my whole day seem sour. I actually get depressed, I can feel it in my whole body. When I make the effort to get up at a reasonable hour, get showered and dressed, it helps alot. Today a woman in the store commented on how I was looking nice and out of the house with a 4 week old. I said "hey, it's a matter of survival", but the compliment was nice. Anyways, the whole point of this is not to brag about how good I look (with 20 lbs to lose I sure don't feel that way, lol) but to say that my mental health is really good when I do this. I even found time to dye my hair yesterday and rid myself of the grey roots showing up. So if any of you, especially you first time moms, are feeling twinges of depression, my advice is to put those earrings in, wash and style that hair, put on a pair of coordinating tops and bottoms, and get out there - even if it's just hauling the kidlet to the grocery store! I can't tell you what a difference it makes in the whole tone of my day!
Geez, look how I ramble when I finally have two hands to type with!!