Weekly thread -- Nov 1-7 - Page 2

[sinsaratea]

HI! Just found out!!!!!

Hi y'all. I just found out that I'm pregnant!!!! I am about 6 weeks along. Just wanted to say hi and join the fold.......

Sara

[fuzzypeach]

Heard the Heartbeat!!

Yesterday I had my second appointment. I got to meet my nurse-midwife, and I like her a lot - she's really cool. She said she didn't expect to feel the fundus or hear the heartbeat at nine weeks, but that she was going to try, and if not, I'd get an ultrasound. I asked if she ever had heard one at nine weeks and she said no.

So she put the doppler to my belly and after a minute or so of random noise, there it was! Swishswishswish! So awesome I cried a little bit - I was so happy to hear it and relieved to know baby is alive and well in there. I felt elated all afternoon

But, when she did the pelvic exam she asked if my bladder was full - I'd just emptied it - because I was feeling bigger than nine weeks! Like, as much as a month bigger! So she scheduled an ultrasound for next Thursday, to check my dates.. which I could be three weeks off, but that's it. Still I'm glad to have a medical reason for an ultrasound, cause otherwise I would only be getting the 20-week one that my insurance covers.. I'll get to see baby sooner than expected!

I don't know what I'll do if there's more than one in there!! Yikes!!

Anyways that's my exciting news: ) Congrats to all those who have joined the club here recently and wishing the best to the rest!

Angela

[Meli65]

losing stuff!

OK, am I the only one here who is losing things? I don't really feel like I have pregnancy brain, but am starting to wonder. I have lost my favorite (and only!) sweatpants, and my Dr. Sears Pregnancy Book in the last couple of days. Last night we lost one of two remaining pacis for my son (a serious issue!). I don't have a big house or a lot of stuff and it is driving me nuts!

In other news, I meet the lay midwife next week for a two-hour session of questions (!) and the CNM the following week for a check-up. No internal check-up right? That's the feeling I get from these boards. Thanks!

[SharonAnne]

I spent a good hour crying to my husband last night about how much it sucks to be pregnant. :LOL I feel bad about it, because I've been trying to get here for so long, and now that I'm here, I swear, you guys, I hate it. :LOL I can't wait to give birth and get my body back.

The biggest issue, of course, is my digestion sucking. Besides that, though, I'm freezing all the time, but can't STAND to have the heat on. It makes me absolutely sick to my stomach. So, I spend my entire day shivering. My husband wanted to take me to my favorite restaurant last night, and I turned him down. I just would die if I went to my favorite restaurant and couldn't eat anything. Or worse, what if I went to my favorite restaurant, ordered my favorite meal and it totally turned my stomach?! So, I got a salad from Wendy's instead. sigh.

I really hate that I hate being pregnant. I'm supposed to be happy and excited and not minding feeling like crap. But I DO mind. I mind A LOT. :LOL

Sorry I'm so snarky today. Hope everyone else is feeling better than I am. :LOL

[NiksMom]

SharonAnne-
I totally understand what you mean. I've heard so many of my friends and coworkers gush about how wonderful their pregnancies were.
Mine first pregnancy sucked. Nothing seemed to go right. I developed gestational diabetes (had to take insulin), got huge, had some pre-term contractions, had non-stress tests CONSTANTLY, numerous ultrasounds, ended up on light bedrest the last few weeks, had to monitor my blood pressure as it started to get high towards the end and to top it all off had a scheduled cesarean section due to breech presentation.
It was awful! I know I sound ungrateful- it was all definitely worth it and I'm obviously willing to take the chance again, but I just wasn't one of those glowing pregnant women, you know?
It was really hard. I'm trying to go into this pregnancy with a positive outlook, envisioning a completely different pregnancy and birth this time around, but it's hard because I feel like crud :Puke
But it really helps to know that other mommas are going through the same things I am or can at least relate to me.
Sorry you're having a rough day today

[paniscus]

I had another appt with the mw today and she couldn't hear the heartbeat with the doppler so she did a really quick little peak with the u/s because she knows how worried I am - my little guy is still there and his little heart is still beating away!!

I signed up for this program the mw's offer called Centering (I don't really know how it got its name.) Basically instead of normal prenatal appts I go in once a month and meet with a group of women who are all due around the same time. There is a mw there who kind of conducts the meeting. It is 2 hours long and I still have some private time with the mw in the beginning when I get measured, weighed, etc. Has anyone else tried this or know anything about it? The nurse at the mw clinic mentioned there is a lower rate of pre-term births and low weight births when prenatal care is done this way.

[Pepper]

Hugs, Sharon Anne. I know how you feel. I SWORE that when I got pregnant again that no matter how bad I felt I would be happy and joyous and grateful. Well, I am happy and joyous and grateful but I feel like such complete crap that I have had these terrible thoughts of, "oh I can't wait to get this over with" or "Why did I do this?" or "This was a mistake-I can't do this again.".

And then I feel terrible for thinking those thoughts and feel like a bad person. And I'm not even huge and uncomfortable yet which is usually the hardest part for me! I don't even have unbearable heartburn yet or can't get my own shoes on or am in constant back pain or on and on and on...

I think what we need to try and do is to allow ourselves to feel bad about feeling so bad. This is hard. I really cannot understand women who go through pregnancy so easily, it's never easy for me.

I'm trying to hang in there for the 2nd trimester which is usually the best time for me. Everyone who is feeling badly, just hang in there! It'll get better (before it gets worse ). And try to keep your mind on the amazing miracle growing inside of you...imagine nursing her or him, imagine smelling their sweet baby smell and touching their soft hair. Imagine the first time they look up at you and smile, the way they reach out to you and clutch your hand. Think of holding them closely in the night and rocking them to sleep...the incredible bliss of this unconditional love. This is what it takes to get that.

We can do it!

[aja-belly]

hey, that centering thing sounds really great. i wish it was offered at the birthing center here.

aja

[westernskies]

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[SharonAnne]

Well, I am happy and joyous and grateful but I feel like such complete crap that I have had these terrible thoughts of, "oh I can't wait to get this over with" or "Why did I do this?" or "This was a mistake-I can't do this again.".

Pepper, YES! I'm constantly saying things like that, especially the "this was a mistake" one. And then I feel AWFUL. I'm afraid my poor baby is going to think she's not wanted. And she IS. All the accompanying crap isn't, though :LOL

I told Paul last night that this baby is very likely to be an only child. I cna't imagine going through this on purpose again. :LOL

[kathywiehl]

I agree that centering sounds like a great idea! What a wonderful way to connect with other likeminded mamas due around the same time! I would have loved something like that back when I was seeing a CNM.

[Meli65]

About hating being pregnant (and I think we all do, at one point or another, whether we admit it or not! -- I at present, am desperately missing my old bad habits and am feelings resentful about that --oh, the shame!) -- I'll offer some advice a friend gave me when I was pg with Miles. That was a tough pregnancy and I was under a LOT of stress and I did complain a lot. She just told me that she tried to remember that this might be the only time she would ever be pregnant and to try to enjoy it, and at the very least, just experience it.

So, I think that's good to bear in mind. And if possible, not to beat yourself up to much about not being the perfect glowing pg mama -- it's just not productive. Wallow in it instead, and dive back into the Halloween candy

[Awaken]

Hi Ladies- finally getting to check in.

I am miserable, too. Thanks for all the encouragement, everyone. I have been feeling so awful, tired isn't the word. And I am accomplishing *nothing* but the basics of feeding and dressing myself and my son, and dragging myself through work. And to top it all off, my husband has been working nonstop lately so I've been alone from early morning till night with no help or companionship. AND today I woke up with a terrible chest cold, I have a terrible cough and my chest hurts so bad! I hope I don't have pneumonia!

I am just disappointed b/c my last preg. was one of those glowing, happy, feel-good times, and this time I am just miserable, sick, lonely, and exhausted. I truly hope it gets better in the 2nd trimester. If I get to take a nap I can make it through the day, but on the days I work, or am just not able to sleep, I am barely functional.

I have felt so bad that I haven't wanted to tell anyone about the pregnancy. I finally did tell my parents and sisters, and told one close friend. I have no desire to tell anyone b/c then they'll be asking how I"m feeling all the time and I don't want to go into it.

Sorry for being so negative, but I don't have anyone else to talk about it with- not having told any of my IRL friends!! Although the constant sleeping and feeling bad is going to get quite suspicious soon I'm sure and I'll have to spill the beans.

Hope everyone has a great weekend, and thanks for all the support and encouragement!

Kathy- that Centering thing sounds great!! I would have LOVED that the first time around!

[mclisa]

westernskies: what sorts of questions will you be asking?

I'm such a go with the flow sort of girl that I didn't ask too many at my first visit. I figured we'd have time to cover that later.

Michelle
(I'm trying to figure out how to tell DH that I'm craving ribs when I've been moody and had an upset stomach all day.)