weekly thread Nov. 15 - 21 - Page 4

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I haven't even thought about my water breaking in bed! I'm so out of it.
I wonder what I should do. It's alot of water sometiems so I don't know what would help but maybe i'll use either a underpad that I have from the hospial or make something. I have some PUL, sherpa and all that. I COULD make something but I'm not in the mood. Then again, amniotic fluid may stink up the matress if I do nothing. I'm only starting my 36th week so I'm not too worried. I may take something like that out of town for thanksgiving. It would suck if it happened in someone elses' bed. I have a mattress pad and an eggcrate thingy on my bed. None are waterproof.

[cinnamonamon]

My water broke with ds1 in bed. I woke up at 4 am in a circle that was probably 3 x 4 ft. It spread out on the sheet quickly & I don't think I was asleep for long afterwards. We pulled the sheets right up & the mattress wasn't all that wet (that I remember). It actually didn't leave a stain or make it stinky, so that's good! Of course, it was a high leak, so it probably wasn't as much as it could have been, kwim? I wouldn't bother making anything -- maybe put that underpad down & a towel on top, then put the sheets on -- no big deal, really.

[PatchyMama]

Happy Birthday Carolynn!!

I also havent thought of my water breaking in bed this time, LOL. With dd1 my water didnt break til I was in transition.... not sure If I will be so lucky this time, lol.

Good news for today? Ive gotten a whole bunch of diapers sewn, a new pail liner for the diaper pail.... and I finally feel READY. I got a huge burst of energy the other night and organized just about everything in the baby's "area" LOL.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!

[shalena]

37 weeks :)

Am I the first one back? I've been checking on the forum all day to see if it was back up and voila, here it is!

It's been a hard weekend for me. As some of you know, my mom was suffering from lung cancer. I lost her this saturday. I don't know what to feel. I'm so sad, so full of questions, angry, and I don't believe it. I'm only 21, I need my mom. How can she be gone when the baby is due anytime? How is it that she will never meet her grandbaby? I didn't know the severity of her illness, I led myself to believe that she was getting better, not worse. I miss her alot. I'm so lost. I have so many things I still want to say, so many things I want to apologize for, so many things to ask her. I can't stand to be alone because I end up thinking about her and crying. I don't know how to grieve, this is my first time.

I have a midwife appointment tomorrow, and am being tested for GBS again. I don't know why again? I had it 5 weeks ago, would it really have gone away?

I missed you ladies. I'm glad we're back.

[cinnamonamon]

Oh Shalena!

s ...you must be why I woke up & on a fluke checked my computer. I wish I could do more than offer a long distance hug. I had a close friend who lost her mother to cancer within months of discovering it this year -- she is closer to 30, but it's still been incredibly hard for her -- we just weren't meant to lose our parents so young (as if it will ever be easy). If you will PM me your number I can pass it on to her & I'm sure she'd love to share how she has begun coping. It is a long, hard road.

Good luck with your GBS test -- I have no idea if it's something that will come & go -- maybe it's just one of those routine tests they "have" to run? I had mine last week.


Things have been nice here, I'm getting motivated (nesting!!) and getting much done, but the kitties we had to give away left us a nasty present...fleas! So now I have to try to get rid of them w/o dousing the house in chemicals & before the baby comes...

to everyone -- I missed you over the weekend!! :LOL

[lauren]

Shalena, hugs to you in your grief. This has to be the hardest time to lose a mom, especially with all you've been through. Treat yourself gently and nurture yourself as a mom would. I don't know what your spiritual beliefs are, but perhaps there is another way to feel connected to her at this time...?

I'm glad the site is back too. Please take care of yourself.

Lauren

[Kundalini-Mama]

Oh Shalena, I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your mom. Not that losing a parent is ever easy, but this must really be an especially hard time for you w/the birth of your baby coming up.

In terms of GBS, yes, it comes and goes. And goes and comes. It blows my mind that the medical profession looks at one test at 36w and determines if you are + or -, when you can be totally different during birth, AND show risk signs of GBS colonization (fever, ruptured membranes for an extended period of time, etc.) and they can miss it, b/c you tested negative.

Off my soapbox.

Anywho, I've been having BHs every 5 min now for the last week and my baby dropped about a week ago, which is odd b/c it is my 2nd. I tried to find my cervix, but for some reason, can't find it at all. I'm 38w, so I'm sure my body is just getting ready. I'm actually quite excited as w/my son, I started having these uncomfortable BHs every 5 min (day and night, like now) from 28w on. So I feel like I had a little reprieve. :LOL

Amy

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Hello everyone! I'm so glad to be back here.

Shalena, i'm so deeply sorry. I wish we could all be there to help you through this time. Grief is a strange thing. It seems like it takes ages to catch up to you and then you feel like it's just happening all over. I had a really hard time dealing with things emotionally after Meg was born. It took so long to catch up with me that she was well and almost a year old and I would find myself in her room looking through NICU things I had saved bawling my eyes out. Like while I was there in the moment I just couldn't face it and had to keep going. You'll find your time to cry and heal or it will find you. I'm just so sorry that you must be sad now at this happy time in your life. Did you get the package I sent? I hope so, I didn't put delivery confirmation on it.

So....

My midwife came and checked me yesterday. I'm only 1 cm and 50% effaced. Semi soft. He's dropped dramaticly. I'm only measuring 34 now. Said she could feel his head easily. I lost part of my plug I think. It looked like (sorry tmi) clear snot in the cup I peed in for my urine dip. I guess that's what it is. I have no idea. I never lost it and actually saw it with the other kids. I have to go to the OB today. I bet she will want a pelvic and GBS test. I don't care either way. I'm not having the baby there. I got my pool yesterday. DH blew it up and i'm all ready.I've had some swelling tis weekend. The first i've had at all this pregnancy so it freaked me out but I know some swelling is normal. I haven't gained weight and my BP is ok so.. I just have to stop worrying.

MW and I discussed yesterday what we will do if it starts going up. I will follow the PIH protocol in Susan Weeds childbearing years book and do the cream of tartar and we will go ahead with the inducting herbs and all that. That is after Dec 1. I will be ok to have the baby then. He's not actually due till around Christmas so any earlier scares me after having a preemie once. Emma came at 38 weeks and was 7.7 so I know 38 is pie. 37 should be OK too. What sucks is that my wedding ring is over at my brothers where I forgot it and I have no gauge of my swelling without it! Anyway I will let you all know if the doc has anything interesting to say. I was so bored this weekend with MDC down. I cleaned everything you can imagine.

[PatchyMama]

shalena -- im so sorry mama

[mamamoo]

Shalena~I am so sorry. I can not even imagine the pain you are going through right now. Please remember to take care of yourself...be gentle.