Another mama joining this thread, we, or rather I, have made the decision to seperate, now we just have to save up enough money for the deposit of a new place.
I will be able to watch what I want on the tv, or just keep it off.
I will not have to turn off my really cool music just because he walked in the door and had to turn on the tv that had been off all day.
I will no longer have to sleep with the lights on.
I will have no judgements made about my friends.
I won't have to lie about where I have been or doing while gone.
I won't have to check in constantly.
I can cook what I want, how I want it.
If I burn something, nobody cares, and will eat it anyways.
If I burn something, I won't have to hear "But baby, its because you never follow directions!"
No more being in charge of his health, and feeling guilty and worried when he doesn't come through with his promises.
No more being treated like a child.
I will be able to follow my spirituality without feeling censored.
I will finally own my sexuality.
I will be able to try something new (and like it!) without hearing "but you dont like that!"
I will never again be locked out of my own house, unless I do it by accident.
I will no longer feel guilty when another guy gives me butterflies.
No more dirty socks and underwearing lying on the floor 2 feet from the clothes hamper.
No more critisism of how my cool music is crappy, only to find it on his mp3 player too.
No more cleaning razor stubble off the sink in the morning.
No more being censored in front of his family.
No more seeing his family against my will!
My son can wear pink if he wants to (cuz real men arent afraid to wear pink!)
I can go mudding without hearing a lecture about how I am tearing up the vehicle.
I can finally trade my minivan in for a truck!!!
I can buy the really tacky but incredibly sexy black satin sheets I have always wanted.
No more feeling like a maid because I do most of the cleaning.
No more being 'walked up to bed' at 10pm because he needs to sleep (on the couch!)
I'll finally have my couch back!
Did I mention how much I hate being told when to go to bed???
No more having the cash 'borrowed' out of my car.
No more waiting for broken promises.
No more giving meaningless chances.
No more having someone listening in on my phone conversations.
I can spend hours on the phone without someone getting pissy about it.
I will finally be free to do all the things I've wanted to do.
I might even kiss a girl.
I will be able to cuddle in bed with my boys until 2pm if I want to.
I won't come up to him in really hot lingerie only to be told that I need to take a bath first, even though I took a shower a few hours ago. C'mon, what guy turns that down???
I will no longer feel like his mother. He will no longer treat me like I'm his child.
I won't worry when he chooses not to wear his seatbelt. It's not my problem.
I won't worry when his health declines because he isnt taking care of himself. Not my problem either.
I actually am excited about finally being out on my own, and making my own decisions.
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. Hindsight: yeah right. Never marry a man who isn't already who you want him to be, especially if you plan to parent together!
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