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post #21 of 108
1/14/05 at 9:05pm
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Thank you Mamas! The only solace I have right now is that my Papa is going to be with my Son. I asked him last night to hug & kiss my sweet baby Carson & tell him how much I loved & missed him, & he said that was the first thing he planned to do.

Carson Jerome & Jerome John
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post #22 of 108
1/14/05 at 9:07pm
All my prayers to our great Lord are with you and your grandpa and family tonight. He will be in no pain soon, but your pain is obviously overwhelming. Hang in there and let us know how you are doing.

post #23 of 108
1/15/05 at 2:54am
Thank you for sharing your deepest thoughts. I am SO glad that you got to share those feeling/thoughts w/your sweet grandpa.

Hugs~

Lisa
post #24 of 108
1/17/05 at 4:09am
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Thanks Ladies. It's so hard. I haven't seen him look as great as he does right now in 2 years. Hes happy & joking & peaceful. It's so weird, in just a few days I know he will be gone & I want to beg him to go back on dialysis... I won't but I want to plead with him.

Thanks so much for listening to me ramble.
post #25 of 108
1/17/05 at 4:35pm
rachelle

i am awed by your strength. savour these moments with your papa
post #26 of 108
1/17/05 at 7:13pm
We are here for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs~

Lisa
post #27 of 108
1/18/05 at 3:49pm
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Thanks Ladies. I spent the night with him again last night, he was having alot of trouble sleeping so I stayed up a good portion of the night with him & he told me old stories about growing up in Iowa, all about his parents & truck driving. He is so amazing. Hes starting to get very swollen. He can't move his feet anymore, his legs are like tree trunks. I wish I knew what to do about it, just to make him more comfortable. He says it doesn't hurt but his skin is just so tight feeling. I spent alot of time scratching & rubbing his back & just holding his hand. I really want to be strong for him but I am having a hard time holding it together.

I took Chase to school today, so he could atleast have a teeny bit of his normal routine intact. He loves staying out with my Grandparents but I think all of this is quite confusing for him.

Please wish my Dear, wonderful, amazing Papa peaceful & comfortable days ahead.

Love you all.
post #28 of 108
1/19/05 at 3:17pm
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We have spent the last two days watching old home movies & watching one of his favorite movies, he is so clear & funny right now. It is like my Papa is back. ((((Jerome John Hellman))))
post #29 of 108
1/19/05 at 6:26pm
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Love to you and your papa, Rachelle.

Thinking of you both, wishing you strength and peace...
post #30 of 108
1/19/05 at 8:15pm
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Thank you so much.
post #31 of 108
1/21/05 at 4:57pm
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He is still with us, each day he sleeps more & becomes less coherant. Please send him peace & love.

XOXO - Rachelle


((((Jerome John Hellman))))
post #32 of 108
1/21/05 at 6:23pm
((((Rachelle))))

((((Jerome John Hellman))))
post #33 of 108
1/21/05 at 6:41pm
I'm so sorry. s Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
post #34 of 108
1/23/05 at 4:05am
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Thanks Mamas. He was telling jokes today & being silly, but you could tell it was hard on him... hes so tired & weak. He winced in pain in his sleep but he keeps telling us all that he has no pain. Im very afraid he is suffering & hiding it from us.

Please send my Papa peace & love.

((((JEROME JOHN HELLMAN))))

I love you Papa!
post #35 of 108
1/26/05 at 3:51pm
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He is still with us, hes having a very hard time breathing & it tears me up inside to see him like this. He looks so frail & sad. Please wish him peace & love. Thanks Mamas.
post #36 of 108
1/26/05 at 4:59pm
God Bless you and your papa. I am praying for peace for both of you.
post #37 of 108
1/26/05 at 5:25pm
More love to you, Rachelle.

(((((Jerome John Hellman))))))

Peace and rest to you both.

post #38 of 108
1/26/05 at 8:42pm
I am so glad that you have been able to spend so much time w/your dear Papa. Sending hugs to your entire family during this stressful time.

Much Love~

Lisa
post #39 of 108
1/27/05 at 2:16pm
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Thank you all so much!

Well I am home for a few hours to shower & check my mail. My Gramps is still here but his hospice nurse said that most of his functions are shutting down now & she would be surprised if he made it through the night tonight. His breathing is very labored & we can not wake him so he is pretty much comatose. It is so hard to see him like this. I picked out his burial clothing, wrote his obituary & put together a slideshow of pictures for his viewing & funeral. It pretty much tore me up, I am emotionally exhausted. Please send peace & love to my Papa.
post #40 of 108
1/27/05 at 3:42pm
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