my baby is 4 months old, and its hard to find spare silent minutes for a meditation practice. or perhaps, my meditation practice has morphed into a 24 hour devotional meditation on my baby, on that surrender, and on the wonder of her as a perfect example of how to be in a state of, well, Beingness. Of natural peaceful uncensored Selfhood.
Now, here's where I'd like help: I am not without my challenges. Sleep deprivation can make me crabby to Dh and put me in a less tghan grateful state with dd. Also we moved in with my mother, which is wonderful in many ways but also triggers feelings leftover from my childhood, resentments about how she didn't breastfeed me or homeschool me or do all the wonderful AP things I'm so passionate about with dd. It can be hard to keep my heart open around her, especially when her mere presence can make me feel like a hurting teenager again. But now more than ever, as a mother, I want to make spiritual strength, non-judgement, unconditional love, and an open heart the basis of my daily life, for me and my Beloved daughter. Yet no time to sit and meditate, which is what I used to rely on. Plus we live in the boondocks, no fellowship in this except dh and the mountains and trees and sky of course. But I was thinking that affirmations/mantras would be a useful tool: anyone use any/know any sweet, heartopening ones to do with being a mother? And I could say them to center without having to stop changeing diapers, nursing ,ect.? Thank you!!! I'd love to hear your ideas and experiences, regarding staying spiritually centered during daily life with a baby.
Now, here's where I'd like help: I am not without my challenges. Sleep deprivation can make me crabby to Dh and put me in a less tghan grateful state with dd. Also we moved in with my mother, which is wonderful in many ways but also triggers feelings leftover from my childhood, resentments about how she didn't breastfeed me or homeschool me or do all the wonderful AP things I'm so passionate about with dd. It can be hard to keep my heart open around her, especially when her mere presence can make me feel like a hurting teenager again. But now more than ever, as a mother, I want to make spiritual strength, non-judgement, unconditional love, and an open heart the basis of my daily life, for me and my Beloved daughter. Yet no time to sit and meditate, which is what I used to rely on. Plus we live in the boondocks, no fellowship in this except dh and the mountains and trees and sky of course. But I was thinking that affirmations/mantras would be a useful tool: anyone use any/know any sweet, heartopening ones to do with being a mother? And I could say them to center without having to stop changeing diapers, nursing ,ect.? Thank you!!! I'd love to hear your ideas and experiences, regarding staying spiritually centered during daily life with a baby.
