Yeah, I've been very moody! I'm really trying to work on having some control over my urge to burst out in anger though. Even when I'm not having a little frantic outburst, I must be coming across as tense, stressed, emotional, etc. 23 month ds has been saying, "Sad?" sometimes when I am just tired and I explain that I'm just tired. But then there are times when Jakob says, "Sad" as in, he is feeling sad and when I ask him why he says, "Don't know!" and sobs. And sometimes he gets sad because he's just dumped milk on the carpet after dumping yogurt on it the night before and I've lost my temper and asked him too loudly "Jakob, what are you doing?!" The combination of my moodiness and him approaching 2 and really asserting himself is proving to be quite challenging. We are still breastfeeding as well and it seems his breastfeeding has increased tremendously. I think that may be why my nipples are sore. I was thinking maybe I was drying up and so he was nursing more to compensate but I can tell he still gets a lot of milk at his big nursing at night and in the morning .... and I am able to hand express and it seems like the same amount as normal. I think he is just wanting to connect to me more and get extra comfort from me to compensate for this new time in our life. Also, I did talk to him about us having a new baby that's growing in my belly, and that sometimes milk can go away when that happens. I told him it doesnt happen all the time, but if it did mommy would still be giving him lots of hugs and kisses and love. But maybe he is filling up now just in case! Does anybody else suddenly feel like a horrible mother? Ugg. So yes, definitely emotional. My impatience extends to dh too, but I've written enough....
I think I am going to try geopark's lead and try some meditation. I have a cd to listen to for it, and that sounds like a really really good idea!
April
I think I am going to try geopark's lead and try some meditation. I have a cd to listen to for it, and that sounds like a really really good idea!
April
