Ooooh - right click! right click! How cool! I'm here. Been veeeery busy last 24 hrs. Weird...all happens in a rush. Still pregnant, of course, nothing on that front, but went from bleeding all over the house (ugh) to getting dd to dance, to chinese food (been craving that one all week!) to birthing class (once again the only couple to show - was it the 1/4 inch of snow???) and didn't get home till nearly 10. Pooped, I crashed hard and slept till alarm at 6:30 (which wakes us to radio) and listened to school closings and school was closed so I pulled the plug on the radio and went back to sleep. I can't believe how well I'm sleeping! Last 2 nights have been great! I haven't napped at all (or less than 10 min) during the day last couple of days, and I have been eating better... except for today when I wiped out an entire row of Thin Mints (G-D Girl Scout cookies!)...but also ate a bunch of salad and whole wheat and mixed grain pasta with organic cheddar... ummm borderline ok I'd say (if one doesn't count the cookies
). Anyway, didn't manage to do the car yesterday, so I did that today and then ran a bunch of errands with dd. Got home and made 'lunch' at 3:30pm, and it took like 45 minutes to read through all the posts! I feel caught up but completely behind in comments... overwhelmed... gulp ... but RIGHT CLICK! Lisa is so smart (that was you, wasn't it!?)
Ok - so I'm going to approach this by topic, instead of person... see how far I get that way.
Husbands. They are wonderful nincompoops. They love us (and probably won't leave us!) and yet they so TOTALLY do NOT understand the first thing about being US. And to be honest, I don't really get what it is to be him, either. Different. Big. Hairy. Kind of smelly in a different way. He sleeps holding his penis, and doesn't care who hears him fart. He's really particular about some things that I just don't care much about, and other stuff is REALLY important to me and he just doesn't get it
. So I think we need to just live and let live there. I know that creatures with 6 and 8 legs also belong on this earth, and I HAVE to share it with them (even my bed!), but I don't have to like it when I actually NOTICE them... so that's where I'm leaving that one.
I think our level of irritation with them is another issue. Once in a while I take some kava kava because it really calms down those nerve endings. I walked in the door last night, late, with chinese food and like 15 minutes to ENJOY it before the babysitter came, and DH is home (which he wasn't supposed to be, he was supposed to meet me at the class, so now I'm supposed to have enough food for him, too, which I didn't) and he's wanting to help and I've been running ragged for like 4 hrs. with dd and I'm feeling pretty wiped and grumpy and he's like "what can I do"? I want to tell him to make himself some food so we can just get on with getting out of the house, but I just looked at him, handed over the bags and said "I'm totally grumpy and need a few minutes. Can you get this stuff ready to eat?" and I took off boots, coat, scarf etc., went to the kitchen and put about 5 drops of Kava kava into a glass with a little water, drank it, sank into the Lazy-Boy, kicked my feet up in the dark living room, and was better in less than 10 minutes. By which time dh and dd had cleared and set the table, gotten drinks out for everyone, and dd came in a put her little hand on my cheek and said "come eat, mama. The table is ready". I was SO feeling better. I didn't expect dh to understand how I was feeling, I just kind of put it out there that I needed him to do X and then left him to do it. They did great! Our class that night was awesome and we snuggled and smooched alot when we got home. Ahhhhh.
On readyness: It seems like every day is very different. Some days people are cool and don't ask a lot or say a lot, and other days it's an inundation of retarted people who can't get it through their head that I have no intention of having a long conversation with them about when the baby is/was due, whether it's better to let the baby stay in longer or go in and have an induction (yeah like THAT would work for me), or any other topic related to my infant/pregnancy. Huff! I do get grumpy about it. I am also feeling like a real fence sitter, not wanting to end the pregnancy (although the end really isn't as beautiful as the rest has been), and I feel badly knowing there are some of us mamas who are not holding on to this the same way I am. Sorry - I hope my vibes aren't holding anyone else up! I think mostly that when the body/baby are ready, they do make it happen.
On breathing: I think the breathing that is typically LaMaze, but also a bit Bradley, is somewhat unrealistic for late 1st stage (transition). If you have a great coach (partner, mw, doula) who is with you through each contraction and staying on top of your breathing, it's possible to do it, but I had a tight feeling in my whole darned BODY with dd, and breathing was no less problematic then relaxing my forearms. If I focused on just that I could do it, but it was hard work just staying with the rush through to the end and not tensing up my whole body (gotta focus on the lower part, as that is what really needs to be Ooooopen). This time around I am hoping to use more visuals to keep me in a more relaxed place. It's hard, though!
On beads: this was such a great idea. Next time one of us has such a great idea let's figure out ahead of time HOW to do it! I think Karen's envelopes were probably the most successful, as it seems that most people are getting her beads. Feels like someone hasn't gotten someone else's beads for just about everyone else... guh.
Wounds: my finger is much better today. Probably I should've gone and gotten stitched, as the site of the wound is totally numb (although there is feeling in the tip of the finger, so I don't think there's permanent nerve damage) and it's still not 'together', but it's not bleeding (much) and the pressure bandage is now off and just a band-aid is doing the job. Sorry about your finger, Lisa! Someone mentioned that at least we do have all this extra blood, which really made me laugh! :LOL As far as timing goes, it WAS good! I also got a splinter in my big toe (from wood floor), which dh operated on. That, as we were putting on boots etc. to go to class... sheesh.
Weather: very weird weather. Snowy, icy, rainy, sunny, very weird. still pregnant. can't comment further. everything feels weird!
Banana bread: I made a super yummy bread, well, at least I THOUGHT it would be a super yummy cake, with carob chips etc., but I think the oven was too hot because it was super crispy on top, the middle folded in on itself when I took it out of the oven and the inside was still raw. Ugh. Chucked the whole thing and will make a new one with dd in a little while. I don't want it so much, now, though, after all the GS cookies.
My baby is very low now (mw commented on that last night), which is kind of nice because there is less rib kicking happening - baby does this kind of tickling thing that gives me the shivers sometimes, like running a stick along a fence... I think it's a foot or a knee along the lower ribs. Very cool. I love to watch the movement, blankets rippling, shirt poking, I think it is just SO amazing! I was walking the dog this morning and the babe was so active and lively! I do hope it is not a portent...but I do love love love these pokes!
Ok, I think I am running out of steam and am still pecking, instead of typing, and I've been at this for like 30 minutes! I promised dd I'd put my feet up and then we'd do the banana bread, so I'd best get to getting my feet up! We are listening to book four of the Spiderwick Chronicles (not bad, check them out at the library - not for the little ones, but my 6 1/2 yr old loves the stories), so I think I shall go and enjoy a few moments while dd dresses/diapers her bears with baby's clothes and diapes. I guess it's just a little more laundry
Have a great evening out ladies going out for dinner! I hope you enjoy! I wonder if Pam&Abs have had a baby???
I've given up already
There were a couple mamas who were due around the same time as me, so we got to see each other's babes and commiserate about birth and stuff, yk?
to you Az. Your baby will come. You know it!!! and if you're not even 38 weeks, you know your baby could probably use a little more cooking.
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