I am throwing myself into such a depression right now. I am 28 wks pregnant, still throwing up a few times a week, I feel like crap. I am throwing my dd a little b-day party tomorrow, she'll be one. I was so excited. I invited my grandpa (her great) to the party, I wasn't expecting him to come (he never comes to anything), but it looks like he'll be here with his wife. Now I am freaking out, I am so embarassed by my living situation, and I shouldn't be. Its just that we live in a tiny little house (1100 sq.ft) no basement or anything and its not in a great neighborhood, which is why I've never invited him here before, he is a multi-millionare and I know he'll start judging. Him and his wife are only impressed by people with money. And I mean I like this house, its quaint, but I never really wanted to live in the city, its just that this is all we could afford when we got married, and I really don't like it here. I am having a hard time even getting motivated to get ready for the party because I'm so nervous about them coming. I know I should have more self-respect than that and it shouldn't matter what he thinks, I mean we should just be focusing on dd, but it still drives me nuts. Why is this driving me nuts?
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1/11/05 at 3:38pm