Oh my goodness.. Thank you!!!!Is this a real thing???? I mean, I thought it was only me!! I even went to a therapist because I thought I was just going bonkers. I am pregnant with my third baby and for some reason I am experiencing all the fears you might imagine I'd be having if this were my first. We planned to get pregnant, but then once I was I thought, "Have I made a mistake"? Honestly I am becoming really delighted with the thought of having another baby, but it's taken me months to feel the least bit positive. I worry about labor and delivery, despite having experienced two absolutely awesome deliveries with my older children. I worry about my mental health, "will three put me over the edge!!!??? Will this be the time I get postpartum?" I told my midwife how I was feeling and she said its pretty normal to feel this way when your family is growing and you know good and well how much things change mentally, physically, and emotionally when theres a new person in the house. With a third baby we aren't in a land of fluff and daydreams, we know about late nights and no sleep and orange poop and drool and we know how labor feels and we know about loosing weight after and we know about all the other stresses and strains of motherhood. We also know how wonderful and worth it it all is, well most of us do, and that is what I have to focus on.