: Hello my friends! What a weird day I had... I was VERY weepy and had ZERO emotional tolerance today. It didn't start at first, but by lunchtime it was clear something was up. My doula was due at 2pm. at 1:45 she phoned to say she'd be late, 2:30ish. I was disapointed, and had spent the last hour or so waiting... but I wasn't too bad off. Dh went to get dd at the playdate. When they came back I was kind of a wreck. The doula called at 2:30 to say she was really hungry and going to stop for food before coming over. dh offered to feed her here and I all but FLIPPED! Now that is SO not me... but by the time she'd get here, we'd make food, she'd eat food, it would be like 4pm, and I just couldn't handle it. I went up to bed, propped myself up on all the pillows I could find and watched star trek and cried.
Poor me... sheesh, I was truly pathetic. I just had one thought of the 15,000 mamas in Indonesia/E.Africa/Sri Lanka who are birthing under palm trees with no help, no family, no doctors/clinics/towels/icepacks/clean water for god sake! That sent me into another fit of crying... Dh came in a couple of times but I wanted nothing from noone. By the time the doula arrived I was feeling a little better. When I went to the bathroom and changed into my robe for the massage, there was show in my panties. OMG! I phoned the mw to check and make sure the massage would be ok. The massage was wonderful, but by the time it was over, I was grumpy?! I crabbed at dd (who wouldn't leave us alone, but who cares!) and then pestered dh about dinner (which he cooked from scratch and it was WONDERFUL). I was really starving. I wonder if I'm storing up for something 'cause even after a big dinner I had cc cookies (yet again!) ... anyway, it's been a weird day. No news from Lisa, so probably they went to hospital... I sure hope they have their baby now!!! What a great day for them.
Chiro - all of us 40 weekers are D O N E. I am crying, fighting, bleeding, weeping all over town. I am with you on the crazi seing everything as a sign thing, because I just am READY! Karen - I think the mall is a perfect place for preggo mamas to be. Lots of walking, easy env't, and generally you can pawn off anyone who sees you whom you know onto some other topic, store, person... I hope you got away from those vibes pronto!
Scat - your body has done an AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING job bringing all your babies into the world healthy and whole! I think you sell yourself short. Make sure you are taking care of your needs right now - you are probably going to birth really soon. Lots of juicy birthing vibes to you!!!
Nicole - good luck with the carriers. We ended up having one or two that we preferred (dh and I didn't like the same one - he's a big fella and needed something with a lot more fabric than I liked), I'm sure you will have it sorted out soon enough. I think it's AWESOME that you sewed it yourself! I hope that it becomes your fave! And I think the wait and see on Will's tummy stuff is a good plan.
Jessi - I don't think everyone has these surging ctx - I didn't have them with dd. It's frustrating, but it also means something is happening - thinning, prepping; something! I feel like the show was more telling of dialation, which may not be true... but it feels more significant, maybe because these ctx have been going on for so long? I am SO glad you got your bead! Whew... I've started taping the outside of the envelope right over the bead on both sides, maybe that'll help too.
We love you Jess! If you're not ready yet, then probably your baby isn't either, so no big whup about that! I hope that you are feeling lots more loveable tomorrow - it's going to be soon now and I think the high level of emotion is a good sign!
PM - avoid the calendar. It's an ugly western concept of time that, for sure, babies do not want any part of. I think there's no point in spending our time waiting... just being ready for the big changes ahead is a lot of work! So don't stress, dont let other's stress you, and just ride the wave...
Ok all, I think I'm going to read for a while. Lots of cheer and prayers for everyone! Andy