This is pretty much OT, but where else would I post this? Anyhoo, this is about a bit of internal turmoil I have today and had yesterday.
You see, this cannot be possible, but I am still wondering. I am two days late, but haven't charted so I don't really know for sure that I am late. I am feeling like I am going to start any minute for the last two days, but I haven't. I haven't slept well for a few days and I have been craving obscene amounts of butter. This is all very familiar to me. But we have been avoiding. Really. I am sure I am just late. I would be tickled if there was an exciting explanation, but it just does not seem possible.
So I guess I'll keep waiting.
And of course we are so remote and I ran out of tests during my last pg and m/c. And it seems so remote that it would be a waste of tests. Perhaps I have been working so hard and so into everything that I ovulated later than usual, though I am very regular even when I have an anovulatory cycle. Maybe it's early menopause.
edited to add that I'll get a test tomorrow and test Thursday morning if my period still hasn't started. I tried to do a boob check, but I feel like I've gained so much weight in the last six months that big boobs may just be a sign of my fat state.