Steph, I'd go talk to someone. Scoring a 76 is a pretty clear sign that something is going on. Plus, I don't think that survey is adequate for those of us who deal with anxiety as a form of our depression. I can take that survey on a really bad day, and I still score fine, though I know I'm not. One of the girls from the meeting came up to me Thursday and told me that she finally gave in and went on prozac. Her dd is six months old and she says that her relationship with her dd is so much better now and she wishes that she had those six months back to do it again with a better attitude and outlook. She didn't realize how bad she had gotten until she went on meds and starting feeling "normal" again.
I know that you have so much on your plate, and while I'm sure that it doesn't help the depression, it probably isn't the entire cause. We can blame it on our circumstance, our hormones, sleep deprivation -- all of which can contribut -- but in the end, it really doesn't matter what is edging the depression along, what matters is that we recognize it and take steps to deal with it.
I really like my psychiatrist, he seems well versed on breastfeeding and meds and is super nice. He doesn't do therapy, but is great as a "mental health/brain doctor" so to speak. If you want his name and number, I'd be happy to give it to you. He's used to getting referals from me.

I'm going in next Friday and talking to him about going back on meds. Of course, now that I've made the appointment, I've been doing much better and am telling myself that I'm fine. I'm at the point where I need to be really realistic and honest with myself about how I'm
really doing. I'm actually hoping to have a bad day on Friday so he will see me on a bad day.
If you need anything, let me know, and keep on coming to the meeting. Just getting out can help.
Welcome to the world of boys. They can be a whole different breed, can't they.
