only a 35, but I think I ought to deal with it now, before it gets worse

[KKmama]

I took the quiz, came to 35, which is about where I thought I'd be. No dangerous stuff, just a lot of 1s and 2s that add up.

Sigh... there's just been a lot on my plate lately. Add to that a sweet baby who's nursing non-stop at night (due to teething, wanting to crawl, the "usual thing" at his age...), and I'm pretty worn down.

Last night was pretty bad... lots of tears all around... thankfully, my dh is a great dad and a very supportive partner, and he's on board.

Posting here is just an acknowledgement to myself that I'm concerned about PPD (and yeah, I assume that's what it is, even though the babe is almost 9 mos old). It's a nudge to myself to get some help. I went through a major depression 15 years ago, and I definitely don't want to go there again... so doing something now, at this point, will hopefully help me prevent that.

Maybe later on I'll post my laundry list of "how my head got here"...

[KKmama]

If you're going to look, can you at least post a hug?

[NeeMa2three]

Sorry I don't have much more to contribute.
-Ne

[Jish]

kkmama, I have to go pick up my ds from preschool, but I want to let you know that I'm here and care. I'm sort of in the same place you are now (for the second time) and my ds is 11 months old. I'm thinking that for me it is a hormonal trigger since it seems to be starting at the same time as it did with my ds2.

I'll check back in soon. We can keep each other in check.

[mommyofboy]

Sometimes I think we just overwhelmed with it all. Sounds like you have a LOT going on.

Try to get some time for you. YOu matter and you have needs too. It's hard for us to realize that sometimes as mothers....

Hope you feel better... I understand how you feel!!! I think a lot of moms feel this way, but never talk about it...

[tug]

kkmama - sending a hug. i have no good advice and don't want to hijack your thread, but i feel for you. i think i'm kind of in the same place (when i took the test, i came out a little higher -- in the moderate range) and also feel like a lot of mine is situational (dad who lives with us and has alzheimer's taking a critical turn for the worse recently). i'm not sure where to look for suggestions since i don't feel like i'm at a point where i need meds.

i did read one suggestion from tribalmax and it keeps going around my head - give up sugar. ack. i live for ice cream and chocolate right now...but she says it makes a world of difference.

good luck to you.

[KKmama]

It's good to know there are other "35s or thereabouts". (Not that I want others to feel crappy, but it's nice to not be alone.)

IRL, realizing that I was concerned about PPD (and vocalized it to key support people) helped a lot. My dh and mom have been really helpful (supportive and facilitating sleep).

Tug, it can be hard when life dishes you difficulties that you can't step around. to you. Can you get some outside assistance for your dad? I know that's a really difficult step to take...

Unfortunately , I eat super healthily and next to no sugar. I actually think chocolate could help me right now.

Jish, the hormonal trigger idea is interesting. I kind of wondered about it, too, but in my sleep-deprived state, I couldn't figure out what could be going on that could cause it. Maybe af trying to come back (still probably too soon for me)? Maybe all that non-stop nursing? Maybe my aging body?

One really positive thing is developing out of this... I wrote about this to my local online ap-type moms group, and I think we're finally going to get a regular playgroup off the ground. (I wasn't the only one feeling isolated and in need of support.)

Thanks for the support. How's everyone else doing?