My baby died at my UC - Page 2

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[mehndi mama]

We lost our second baby after a fast & furious emergency/accidental UC. It took a while for my husband & others (especially hospital personnel) to come to grips with his death - the hospital folks because they felt that his birth at home had to do with his death, and DH because he felt that his treatment in the ambulance & hospital contributed to the problem. I think I had the easier job of letting go - after all, I *knew* my baby, I had memories to hang onto....and I was better able to look over the situation, evaluate how things had been done, and conclude that even if we had been somewhere else, or had been recieving different care, the same outcome would have happened.
My heart goes out to you, mama - just know that although now was not the right time for you to have and hold your little one, he may come back to you eventually. I now have 2 little boys that I believe have brought back some of their brother's spirit to our family....and that is very comforting for us.

PM me if you'd like to talk. :

[jstar]

you're a strong woman
xoxoj

[ishtarmaia]

Thanks, jstar. Sometimes I wonder if I know what the word 'strong' means anymore. I have been told the one about how "God doesn't give you any more than you can handle" and I think that maybe He thinks I am stronger than I really am. But I guess I am handling it. I'm still here and I'm still taking care of my family and living and loving, so I must be pretty o.k., right? Maybe I am stronger than I think I am.

[hawkfeather]

i personally think *strong* is relative...your obviously a very very strong being, but i also think we put a lot of pressure on people to be this thing we call strong, and it has less to do with how thier spiritual, mental, emotional well being is weathering, and more to do with exterior reaction...
I am sure that you have all the power in the universe in you...your words sound grounded and sure..and you obviously have an important story to tell!

[BinahYeteirah]

bs"d

I am so sorry for your loss.

It is good that you do not blame yourself. I wish you continued progress in your path of healing.

[GruppieGirl]

I am so sorry for you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[lisamarie]

sending you love.

hugs-

lisa

[mamabutterfly]

I'm so sorry, mama, for the loss of Ronan. Thank you for sharing his story with us and your thoughts of reflection & healing. I wish you and your whole family peace.

[2boys2girls]

Please accept a big hug and sincere condolensces on your loss. You are a wise and loving mother. Your child was created by One higher than yourself, and his birth was in the hands of the almighty. His life, however short, had a purpose. I send love and prayers for healing in your heart.

[polka123]

OH MY - Mama Jen
I'm so sorry for your loss of baby Ronan


My heartfelt condolences.

The Angels & higher powers are now walking with him


Again, I'm so sorry & sending you & your family much love

[LoveChild421]

oh Jen...I don't know what to say- I wish you peace and comfort- you truly are an amazing woman- I don't think I would be able to surrender to the will of the Universe so quickly and beautifully.

I saw your post on a thread that I started about the souls of our babies coming back and I have been thinking about you for some time now- I feel for you so much- always remember love finds a way back one way or another.

Bless you mama

[ishtarmaia]

Thank you to everyone for your thoughts and beautiful supportive posts. I think of each one as a hug and a prayer and another memorial to my son's life and death and it makes me feel very happy to share that with all of you.

I have had friends and family tell me how Ronan's death has taught them lessons and made them realize things about their own lives and relationships and it is such a blessing to hear that! I know what a gift it has been for me, but to know that others are learning things and experiencing their lives from an altered perspective because of it makes it even more bearable. I find it beautifully poignant that positivity can be found even in the most heartbreaking tragedy. It gives me so much hope and helps me to understand the purpose behind his life and death on a very deep level.

The thought came to me, and I know that I have posted it in other places, but it's something that I feel that I must say again: It truly is a blessing to give birth to an angel!

One grateful mama,

[rainbowmoon]

Thank you for sharing your story

[lizzie]

Originally Posted by ishtarmaia

I have had friends and family tell me how Ronan's death has taught them lessons and made them realize things about their own lives and relationships and it is such a blessing to hear that! I know what a gift it has been for me, but to know that others are learning things and experiencing their lives from an altered perspective because of it makes it even more bearable. I find it beautifully poignant that positivity can be found even in the most heartbreaking tragedy. It gives me so much hope and helps me to understand the purpose behind his life and death on a very deep level.

The thought came to me, and I know that I have posted it in other places, but it's something that I feel that I must say again: It truly is a blessing to give birth to an angel!

One grateful mama,

You are so incredibly strong! I know you wondered aloud about that in an earlier post, but surviving losing Ronan took strength... some people never make it past mere survival. But to survive... and to keep loving, to sort through it all, to learn from your heartbreak, to feel joy and gratefulness for what you were given, to share your memories of your son with others (some of us not much more than strangers!) and give us the chance to love him, mourn him, comfort you, learn from you and your son, and all of us the better for it... You can't tell ME that's not *STRENGTH*.

Jen, you and Ronan are truly inspirational. and lots of prayers!!

lizzie

[Hayliesmom]

Originally Posted by ishtarmaia

The thought came to me, and I know that I have posted it in other places, but it's something that I feel that I must say again: It truly is a blessing to give birth to an angel!

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That's such a beautiful thought. Thank-you for sharing your story. My heart and prayers are with you!

Stacey

[liamandpipersmama]

I'm so sorry for your loss! You and your family are in my thoughts! - Laura

[Lucysmama]

Thank you for sharing with us.

[JodiM]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[Lucky Charm]

I am so very sorry