HI! I've posted a few times over here while I was pregnant and weighing the risks and rewards of taking an anti depressant in late pregnancy to try and combat PPD before it happened and then taking it after the baby was born.
I had a severe PPD with my ds ( now 3 years old) and I just KNEW I didn't want to feel like I did after his birth. That was a hell I wasn't willing to enter again.
SO, I started taking Zoloft 2 weeks before my due date. I ended up having ANOTHER traumatic birth and a repeat cesearan. But I am doing AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG...I cannot describe how I am feeling with this baby and post partum. I am just doing so well and I am bonding well with this baby and feeling like those moms I heard about while I was bawling my eyes out 24 hours a day with my ds. Now, there is no way for me to know if the meds are working or if I never would have had ppd in the first place, but I don't care!! I am planning on staying on them at least 6 months, per my dr's advice.
The only "bad" part about me feeling good is that EVERYONE keeps comparing me with ds as a newborn and me now. They keep reminding me how bad I was then, and how great I am now. It really bothers me that they keep bringing up how bad it was with ds. I know it was bad. I know that I don't have any real recollection of his first couple of months of life. I know that I didn't enjoy him...at all. I guess it does make me feel a little guilty for enjoying this wonderful little girl. I feel bad that I didn't have this special time with my ds too. I finally told my mom, dad, and dh that I didn't want to hear them compare the two experiences anymore because it was bothering me and making me feel bad. THey felt bad about it but they said it was just because I am doing so great and they are so proud of me and everything. I reminded them that I had no control over how I felt then and really equally I have no control over how I feel now. To be proud of me is like saying that I did have control over my feelings with ds.
Anyways, I just wanted to share my success with those that KNOW how it feels to suffer from PPD.
I had a severe PPD with my ds ( now 3 years old) and I just KNEW I didn't want to feel like I did after his birth. That was a hell I wasn't willing to enter again.
SO, I started taking Zoloft 2 weeks before my due date. I ended up having ANOTHER traumatic birth and a repeat cesearan. But I am doing AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG...I cannot describe how I am feeling with this baby and post partum. I am just doing so well and I am bonding well with this baby and feeling like those moms I heard about while I was bawling my eyes out 24 hours a day with my ds. Now, there is no way for me to know if the meds are working or if I never would have had ppd in the first place, but I don't care!! I am planning on staying on them at least 6 months, per my dr's advice.
The only "bad" part about me feeling good is that EVERYONE keeps comparing me with ds as a newborn and me now. They keep reminding me how bad I was then, and how great I am now. It really bothers me that they keep bringing up how bad it was with ds. I know it was bad. I know that I don't have any real recollection of his first couple of months of life. I know that I didn't enjoy him...at all. I guess it does make me feel a little guilty for enjoying this wonderful little girl. I feel bad that I didn't have this special time with my ds too. I finally told my mom, dad, and dh that I didn't want to hear them compare the two experiences anymore because it was bothering me and making me feel bad. THey felt bad about it but they said it was just because I am doing so great and they are so proud of me and everything. I reminded them that I had no control over how I felt then and really equally I have no control over how I feel now. To be proud of me is like saying that I did have control over my feelings with ds.
Anyways, I just wanted to share my success with those that KNOW how it feels to suffer from PPD.
