First off, I wish I saw this topic when it first came out. I swear you were channeling my thoughts exactly in the OP, Qerratsmom!
Secondly, it is so nice to know that I'm not the only one who feels this way. With dd, it was nice and peaceful. I revelled in the life that was growing inside, spent time daydreaming about what she'd look like. I could journal, I did yoga, I ate great,... I could even sit on the porch in quiet contemplation about the new frontier we were going to embark upon...
Now? It's constant chaos. I work part time, and when I'm not at work, I'm working all the time at home. Dd has two babysitters at the moment (both close friends of ours), and one is really good about helping pick up after her, the other isn't. Dh never was great at keeping house, so every time I asked for help it came with a sigh or lament for time he doesn't get to relax.
: I understand that he works in a warehouse doing physical labor all day, but washing some dishes now and again without being asked to do so, wouldn't kill him. Of course, since my recent mini-breakdown modes, he's gotten much better about pitching in -- last night he made dinner.
My mother has finally "found" herself through a new job and some friends. It's very long overdue and I am happy about this. There's just times where I wish she was around a little more for me. I guess she feels that she put in her time with my first pregnancy. I do see her, she does help some, but just as I'm feeling good about spending time with her, she suddenly has something else she's scheduled that's she's off to.
I've tried looking for support groups in my area, but haven't had any luck. I can't seem to get to an LLL or Moms Club meeting because they are always on days where I'm working (who would've thought that my times clash even more when working part time?) I try to walk to exercise, but lately it's been rainy and there's always so many errands to do that its hard to find time. I'd love to yoga, but the only time I can find is just before bed and I fall asleep. Dh and I were taking a Tai Chi class, but he had to drop when he started his new job. I know I should go, but I haven't felt motivated enough. We couldn't afford a gym membership now if I wanted to.
I have no pregnant friends to talk to either. That's been really hard. It's not that none of them aren't sympathetic, but it is definitely different talking with moms or pregnant moms than girlfriends.
I have to agree about the Birthing from Within exercises. I was able to attend a second time or more moms workshop that was excellent (and free!). In it, the instructor used some of the exercises for facing fears and healing from traumatic births. I need to find time to do some of those visualizations again, but I highly recommend them. When I think of them, it makes me feel good.
I just got a copy of Hypbirth that I can't wait to start using tonite (thanks to natashaccat!
) I'm hoping this will also help with my stress and anxiety. It was recommended to me by my MW.