a few questions..update

[LadyWulf]

I had HORRIBLE PPD after my DS was born. Very tramatic birth. Very LONG story.

We are 28 weeks along with #3 now and much of the reason i am "normal" now is that i am preggo again. I never recovered from the PPD with DS before i got preggo with this one. I just took that PPD scoring test and i scored a 78 on it!!! I am just wondering if i should try to prepare myself for PPD again. I have already decided that i will be drying the placenta and putting it into gelcaps after the birth to try and combat PPD. I am just wondering if there is anything else...other than going on meds before the baby gets here. After DS was born i was on Remeron 60mg and Xanax ??mg twice a day and they helped somewhat....but only enough to keep me from killing everyone or being totally insane. I have also taken Paxil, Celexa and Wellbutrin....none of those work for me at all. I really do not like taking pills because it seems that no matter what i am on all it does is sedate me to the point of being a zombie.

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Well. Obviously i have known for quiet a while that i have had depression. The proverbial poo hit the fan the other day though. I simply can't handle it on my own anymore. I really felt like i was teetering on the edge of insanity. I called my midwife...mainly just to talk. I knew she would lend an ear and be sympathetic. It never occured to me to even ask for meds....i just needed to cry and talk. We talked for over an hour. She is mailing me some med samples to get me started. (i live over 4 hours away and due to the problems that brought on the breakdown i am unable to travel to her at this time) She said either prozac or zoloft. (she had to see what they have at the OB clinic as they don't keep meds there at the center). She said she has taken zoloft before for depression and it worked well for her. Strangely it was very reassureing to hear that SHE had been depressed and needed meds to help her. I KNEW then that she understood. I my midwife. I am still struggling right now to keep my sanity intact for a few more days. I hope the meds help. I didn't want to do it...i REALLY didn't want to take anything. I can't joke myself anymore though...i need help

[mommyofboy]

Some people take antidepressants right before they deliver to combat the depression. YOu might mention all this to your OB. See waht he/she thinks. I hope you don't get depression again this time, but if you scored a "78", you might already have it.

[LadyWulf]

I think that at least part of the 78 score is plain old pregnancy hormonalness. I dont have an OB and my midwife doesn't want to do anti depressants. I especially do not want to take any while i am still preggo. I am also concerned about their effect on breastfeeding if i start them immediately after delivery. Does anyone have any natural remedies that might help?

[tribalmax]

Hi,

I just (in the last week) got over my PPD. I posted a thread about this -- but I thought I would share here too.

I also had a really bad birth experience -- and I am SURE that contribued to my PPD.

On a whim, I decided to cut all sugar out of my diet. All sugar. It was really hard. But the relationship between depression and sugar is pretty well established -- so I thought I would give it a try.

After 2 or 3 days, I started feeling like myself again. It was amazing to me!! I mean 8 months of feeling like absolute crap (I also scored really high on that test) and in a few days feeling like the old me. WOW.

You know, I don't know if this will work for others, but it clearly can't hurt (unless of course it does work and then you have to make the choice long term to avoid your chocolate and ice cream )

Good luck! And please let us all know how you are doing!

[LadyWulf]

Sugar really could be an issue for me. I eat a LOT of sugar. Thanks for the advice.

I was shocked at my high score also. Especially considering i haven't thought i was feeling too bad lately. But...this is also coming out of the horridle PPD after i had my son. I SHOULD have been put in an in patient facility after i had him i think. I was a danger to myself, my DH and my son. I had no anomocity for my DD though. I literally didn't touch my DS for 2 weeks after we left the hospital. Right before we left the hospital i was dressing him in his going home outfit and it was all i could do to NOT throw him across the room. It got worse after that. I am determined this time that nothing like that will happen.

ETA: my DH stayed home those 2 weeks after DS was born. When he had to go back on the road i was forced to take care of my son. I fed him without picking him up and would only change him when his diaper leaked. He was circed and that was a HUGE MAJOR trigger for me. Everytime i saw "it" i would get physically sick and then would barely be able to control this horrible fury that welled up in me. From what my DH tells me...and my own memory i did not willingly pick up my son until he was about 3 months old. However (strangely enough) i did co-sleep with him in the crook of my arm every night. He wouldn't sleep without me holding him. That was figured out when DH went back on the road. Until then DH had been sleeping with him on the couch. After the first night i slept with him he would no longer sleep with DH when he was home. He got VERY attached to his Mama eventhough his Mama was being a horrible uncareing person to him.