who do you contact to read your charts? the OB or the L&D dept.? i'd be fascinated to read mine, and to correct any errors. it was an "interesting" labor at least, i wonder what notes the nurses and dr. made! "mother chanted in strange languages for many hours" :LOL
i am having a problem about feeling sexual after the c-birth. my husband and i have been stressed to the max because he still hasn't found a job, so sex hasn't been much of an issue, neither of us have felt like it. but now i'm starting to feel like it ... except my brain keeps saying "that part of your body doesn't work anymore."
logically i know that's not true, the c-birth happened because of a short cord wrap issue. but i'm a sexual abuse survivor and it's just a bad, old habit to depersonalize in times of stress and live "out of body." i've been that way since the c-birth, especially since i couldn't breastfeed, my brain says "see, your whole body is out of order!"
i just feel so disconnected from my body. i do want to see a therapist but none i've found so far are taking Medicare, hopefully my husband will get a job with a decent health plan and then i can find a therapist. (i applied to the survivor's forum here, too, but i've not been a member for a year yet so i haven't heard back from them.)
anyone else go through this "disconnect" with their bodies?