Are you kidding me????
Come on! Is this a joke or what?
Tuesday I had my membranes stripped + was told I was 80% effaced.
Wednesday, I spent THE WHOLE day with stabbing pains, mentrual cramps and a feeling I had to go but couldn't. I chose not to get excited about these signs though.
Then after I came home from the supermarket, I began having contractions I could not time at around 7 pm and bloody mucous began coming out - BTW, I had never seen bloody show before but I know it was a sign things were moving along.
At 11:00 the contractions began coming with a vengance. The real thing - those you cannot smile or talk through and need to medidate while having them in order to bear the pain! I began timing them and they wre 10 minutes apart. A lot of bloody mucous still coming.
By 1:30 am they began coming 7 minutes apart and and stronger! I was so happy - looking forward to calling the MW when they began coming closer.
Well, by 3am they had become weaker and then STOPPED!!!!!!!!!! What in the world?????? I could not believe it! I just sat on my bed in absolute frustration and disappointment.
The bloody stuff keeps coming, but no contractions at all.
Ok, I know I had began feeling positive about all of this, but not now! I am so sad and angry. I have prayed so much and really tried to keep positive, but after last night I feel like giving up...
Today I have to start going for NSTs and I am so afraid the hospital will purposefully find a problem just so they can induce me... It happened to my cousin. The baby was just napping and they said he was not responsive. Hello - why did they not tell her to eat something or used the little buzzer to wake the baby??
Having to be induced will be like running a long marathon just to have someone giving you a ride in the last mile. I was induced last time and was hoping so much to go on my own this time. I just can't have all those drugs injected in me again. My last baby was sleepy for a whole week - it was pretty scary actually.
I will go take a shower now.
Thanks for listening...