I desperately want to have another baby, and now is just not a good time. My kids are 2.5 and 11 months old, we're moving this weekend, and we've got loads of bills and such. For so many reasons, this just isn't a good time.
Still, my son is having a huge growth spurt and is looking and acting older all of a sudden, and my daughter is definately a toddler... I just miss that teensy weensy infant stage, where they want mamma all the time and they're just tiny little people to snuggle up to. BooBah is so totally becoming her own person!
: I don't want to make her over-dependant on me, but I miss the infant days where they need mamma for everything. I find ways to keep busy, but I feel more useful with a tiny infant. Is that strange?
I also want a different birth experience this time around. I wouldn't have more kids than we planned on just to have a different birth, but we want four all together and I'd like for the birth of #3 to be different.
I want to be the first person to touch and smell my baby, I'm absolutely desperate for that. We'll see how it goes!