Mourning the No More Kids Decision

[UmmBnB]

I'm mourning, not regretting, but mourning our decision not to have any more kids.

I am so lucky to have had two amazing beautiful peaceful births that were 100% on my terms from the get go. Birth is something that I just LOVE and could do over and over again.

Pregnancy on the other hand is simply not for me. I feel horrible the entire time. My husband, at my wishes, had a vasectomy when I was three months pregnant with Bella. I was so sick and miserble that I swore I never wanted to do it again....and I don't.

But I'm very sad knowing that I never again will be able to experience the magic of childbirth. I look at Bella and regularaly burst into tears knowing she's my last. Sure we can adopt, and very well might in a few years, but I'll never birth again.

Anyone else in this boat wanna join my pity party :-)

< sigh >

[AmandaBL]

I have 2 boys - 6yrs & 4 mths. I could have 6 more, but DH @ 40yrs is done. I'll join the pitty party & pray for a convenient mistake in about 2 years. haha

[2+twins]

Hey! I'm not quite at the "i'm done" stage but it really looks like we're headed in that direction. We both go back & forth about it all the time. I pregnancy and birth and I just want to do it over and over again (except when I'm in the middle of it and then I kinda don't :LOL). But neither of us are sure we actually want another child - my dh really thinks I *just* want the pg/birth experience again. I honestly don't know! It's so frustrating! I'll get bad cramps and tell dh to go get the vasectomy. Then a day or two later I'm completely rethinking it. Anyway, I get the mourning it thing - I'm sorry! Thanks for letting me ramble.