Oh boof, I hope your baby turns! Good luck with everything.
|Congratulations sarajane- you made it through and you and your husband have a beautiful baby, and that is so wonderful. Neveah is a beautiful name.
I am so sorry that your birth was so difficult for you and for your husband. I hope you are healing well, physically and emotionally. How is your husband?
Husband is ok, he still starts to cry when he thinks of it. He sat me down and asked me about it yesterday, said it bothered him I hadn't talked of it much. He was worried I was keeping things from him. Said he wouldn't blame me if I never wanted to try natural birth again, the whole thing really shook him up.
I'm alright about it. This is what happened, can't change it. I am mostly sad when I think of how I didn't get to see her right away, how I wasn't there for her when she was born, how hard it was to wait, everyone else got to hold her and see her before I did....that was tough. I cried about that alot, I cried when I saw her.....so strange to wake up with my baby gone and be told she is "having her vitals taken, you'll have to wait". Waking up in pain with an oxygen mask being shoved in my face. Thankfully my arms were free and I shoved back, I kept telling them I couldn't take a breath with the mask on, I kept choking, they kept shoving anyway, my stomach burned like fire and my baby was gone....I ached for her so badly.
Hubby was great at the hospital. When the nurse brought her I was vaguely aware of her trying to shove papers in my face to tell me some things but hubby told her to please wait seeing as I hadn't seen my baby yet. She got all mad and said how important the papers were, needless to say he made her leave. Huh, papers more important than seeing my baby for the first time...
Anyway, okay. I should write my birth story soon, that will help me get it all out.
Thanks for listening. Good luck to all the remaining April mommies! And even if things don't go just right, it is so worth it when it is all finished.