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post #1 of 8
10/12/02 at 7:56pm
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my beloved Bailey died today, october 12, 2002 at 12:40 PM.
my heart is broken. sean is diggin her a grave right now, and tomorrow we will find something to plant on that spot. she was 5 years, 5 months and 2 weeks old. she was the sweetest soul to ever inhabit a dog's body.
today is also our 5th wedding anniversary, so we will always honor Bailey's memory as well as our marriage on this date.
Bailey had been rushed up to the veterinary teaching hospital last night, 2 hours away, but she was very critical this morning so we cancelled Shoshanna's birthday party and drove up there as fast as we could so that we could be with her when she died.
i miss her so much already. i've cried so much i have made myself sick. our other dog, Boogers, is sad. she alternates between keeping watch over the body and getting very close to me and sean. we've gone from a family of 5 to 4 today. it's a very noticeable loss.
the vet did give us a kit with which to make an imprint of Bailey's paw, so we will have something of her forever.
post #2 of 8
10/12/02 at 8:30pm
I am so sorry losing a beloved pet is always so sad.

She was a very sick puppy and while it doesn't lessen the pain of the loss any it must be comforting to know she doesn't hurt anymore.

When I was about 12 or so our puppy died...he had been hurt very badly by another dog and I was away at the lake with my grandparents (grandfather still made me go fishing with him..)when it happened. While the rest of my family was with him I never got to say goodbye and it was very painful.

I am glad you got to be with her (((hugs))))
post #3 of 8
10/12/02 at 8:33pm
I'm so sorry!:better I'm glad Sean is there with you so you're not alone.
post #4 of 8
10/12/02 at 8:53pm
I'm so sorry.
post #5 of 8
10/12/02 at 9:23pm
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yes, she was getting worse every day. her whole stomach had turned yellow last night. it was heartbreaking to see her laboring to breathe.
sean is distraught as well. i've never seen a man cry like this before. he had to carry the body from the car into the house and then from the house to the grave. that must have been very hard for him.
i got to clean her up, brush her and clean the blood off her fur and make the paw print in caly. that helped a little, to spend time with the body and see how it really was just her earthly vessel and that her soul is gone from this world.
she was so good. so sweet. so beautiful. i can't even tell you how many nights she was my only comfort when sean was deployed, how many tears her fur absorbed.
i hate all the vets we saw prior to the last one. probably she would have died anyway, but why the fuck didn't they see what the third and fourth doctors saw? why? why did they let me think she would be alright, that her ultrasound was normal?
why did this happen to bailey? i need comforting and mothering, and instead i have to give it. shoshanna is teething and is very testy today. and i am at my rope's end. i snapped at her for crying tonight. shit. i am tired.
post #6 of 8
10/12/02 at 9:24pm
I'm so sorry to hear that. I'll be thinking of you and your family.


peggy
post #7 of 8
10/12/02 at 10:10pm
I am so, so sorry. Our pets are such a huge part of the family and so hard to go through when we loose them.

Sending you healing hugs.

Much Love~

Lisa
post #8 of 8
10/13/02 at 12:13am
I'm so very sorry. What a terrible loss for you and your family. My thoughts will be with you.
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