I'll be 41 weeks in a couple days. I have cried a few times this weekend just wanting my baby to be here. Hubby went ahead and set up our pool and said afterward he was glad he did it ahead of time, took longer than he thought it would. I don't think I would of stopped crying if he hadn't been here. I was fine, we went out to get some dinner and I was having a good time with him but then when we got home I just broke down out of nowhere.
I am in many ways okay with her being late...I don't know what it is. I think part of it is the in-laws, they have been making things very stressful. Thankfully we haven't heard from them in a few days. Well, his mother did call and bring up something yesterday that thankfully didn't involve my being late or anything but was annoying nonetheless. She is wanting us to go to the family rununion that is 6 hours away and will be happening when my baby is only a month old! I can't believe she has the nerve to even ask. We can't afford a trip, we can't stay in the cold dank trailer she had us stay in last time, our car won't make it, we cannot do it anyway because we would have to stop so often to feed and change the baby. I would probably spend most of my time in the hotel room that we don't have money for just taking care of the baby. Like I'm gonna wanna go sit out on the lake while they all drink and ski in the hot sun...
The wierd thing is, these are all people we can get together with at any time, I thought for a sec maybe some other family were flying down or something but no, just the same people we can get together with whenever. So not worth it.
Anyway, I'm just going on. I think I needed to say that somewhere to someone. Doesn't even matter if any of you read this all, I just needed a place to vent I guess. This one thing isn't so bad but it is on top of tons of other things that they have done and said that are very bad and downright mean.
I think all their worry and anger toward us is what is really getting to me. I just want them to disappear so we can be in peace. Even hubby said the other day "Can we handle being parents?" I asked what he meant and turns out he isn't concerned with us raising our child but with all the crap we get from his family. He wonders how the hell we are gonna put up with all this all the time. We gotta do something to make it stop but neither of us need, want, or should have to mess with that right now. We have more important things to worry about.
K, I need to shut up really. This isn't even what I started to write about, sorry I went off topic and talk to much. Thanks for putting up with me.