I actually really
being a SAHM. I always knew I would. I went and got a Ph.D. and the only "professing" I'm doing is trying to come up with explanations for my 5 year old's existential questions like "where do the clouds go after they run across the sky?".
This has been a real struggle and sacrifice for us, and we are seriously in debt because of my staying home, but when we did the math, it doesn't really pay for me to work either. Hopefully in another 2 years dh will get a serious promotion/salary bump and we will be out of the red and things will ease up. In the meantime I get a lot of enjoyment and satisfaction out of living as frugally as I can manage, shopping at thrift stores, cloth diapering, etc. -- and in the meantime I've discovered "natural family living" to go along with attachment parenting. The only real expense is that organic is so much more $$!
Lately the specter of the cost of private religious school (yeshiva) has reared its ugly head...basically public school isn't an option for us either religiously or philosophically. The schools expect that the mom is working before they'll grant scholarships. So, we're anticipating homeschooling I think. Which is also fine, since that is something I'm inclined to want to do in any case. I just can't leave my babies. I just can't.
So I'm very GLAD to be in the company of other mamas who also view this as their life's avocation. I certainly do. I love keeping my home and being my family's domestic PEO (partner executive officer). It satisfies me on a lot of levels.
That said, I have this little dream of opening a basement or next-door store, the kind I want to shop at: kids' resale/consignment with a breastfeeding book corner, a cloth diapering corner, a toy corner for the kids, and a little meeting area for my LLL group and local moms' groups. That's my dream for the future. But retail is really taxing and time consuming, so it'll wait a few years!
I do remember too needing my mom more than ever as I got older, and especially in these times, I think that having mom around as a solid force is really grounding and important for kids.