Tell me I'm not alone here...

[theelfqueen]

I'm the only remaining member on my mainstream DD forum that is still pg... Of course I haven't even gotten to my EDD yet LOL Anybody still here and PG?

[mrzmeg]

Me! My EDD was yesterday...

[Boof]

Happy EDD to Me...

Today is my EDD.

I've been repeating several mantras for the past month about how baby doesn't have a calendar in there, and baby is due when baby arrives, etc, but last night, the time when I hoped to be in active labor and wasn't, I got really sad.

I was trying to avoid the whole number expectation but it was stuck in my head that today would be the day and I had the notion that Sprout would arrive in the wee hours of the morning. I was up and down all night, kinda mourning the expectation. While I still have hopes on when Sprout will arrive, I've been working on letting that go, especially because I'm feeling really guilty about the whole thing- This baby isn't even outside of my body yet and here I am foisting my own expectations and pressures onto baby!

So, I'm trying to settle in for the long haul. I've already waited 280 days, I can wait more.

xoxoxoxo

Beth

[sunbaby]

my edd was saturday, the 23rd. definately the hardest day of my pregnancy. i awoke feeling murderous. and it got worse as the day went by. i had been so sure this babe would be earlier.

i am up every night, cleaning, or when there is nothing left to clean, i pace. literally pace. last night for 45 minutes walking circles around my living room. i am not sure wether it is mental or hormonal, but i do not sleep untill at least 2am. and i have contractions. so many nights i am fooled into thinking ths is it.

last night i worked really hard on letting go a little, like boof was talking about. i mean really, i am making myself miserable. i could afford to have a lot less attachment. the baby will come when he's ready. every day i am closer to holding him in my arms. why not just wait and relax? all this is true, and it is also so hard. i have tryed to will myself into labor and it is not working. so i try to release it and make peace with whatever the night brings.

last time, with dd, on my due date i began taking blue cohosh, because i just 'couldnt' wait anymore. she was born 3 days after my due date. it was fine and beautiful, but this time around, i promised myself early on that i would do better at being patient when the time came. i think i am older, wiser, and want to use this as a learning and growing experience. i want to trust that i will go into labor without any force on my part.

it is hard though. i am really struggling.

[cappuccinosmom]

My EDD was the 13th, and I'm still here!

[sunbaby]

feeling left out of the fun here in the april thread. anyone else?

maybe i should move over to may so i can be in about the same time frame as others.

maybe its just self pity. it sure would feel anticlimactic to come here and post *gee, i had my baby.*

am i making any sense? i am having a hard day. i am so tired. i just want to be able to sleep. i want to lay on my stomach. i want ot not have to worry about wether my midwife is going to worry if i stay pregnant much longer. around here, they dont deliver babies out of hospital past 42 wks. i am so scared of the hospital.

[danaalex]

sunbaby, how far past your EDD are you? we will be totally excited for you WHENEVER your babe arrives!!!! hang in there momma you're doing a GREAT job

[Rainbow]

I for one am still checking in to hear all about the rest of the births for the month!

I know though that when I went past my EDD reading all the announcements was bittersweet. I was ready to meet my baby, and it seemed like *everyone* else would get to first. That week over, though I anticipated it, was hard!

I hope nobody leaves to another EDD board, maybe share in two instead

[sunbaby]

thanks guys. i really need that. i am so gloomy and moody so often. my fears are really big sometimes, even though i am trying to be peaceful and patient.