nursing and pregnacy troubles

Hiya new mommas! I am still new to this group even though I have posted a couple of replies. My third baby is due Jan. 2 even though I just have one I care for now, and she is 10 mos old and still bf. My hormones have really reeked havoc with me since the start. I don't feel like my old self at all, and frankly am probably a little depressed since this wasn't how I pictured things going and the new baby was such a suprise.
Anyway, my 10 mos old dd has been such a good nurser and she cosleeps with us and we generally have regular naps and get through the night ok. But, the last couple of weeks she has started these loud screaming-screeching fits about 7-11 pm. So, I have been soooo naseous and have even skipped dinner the other night because I was so sick and that isn't even like me. She eats alot of organic fruits and veggies, that I either chop of strain thru the food mill. Her ped. took her off brown rice or any grains when we started with him about 7 mos, and told me to feed her egg yolk boiled or cooked in butter or coconut oil since babies need fats. I am really struggling with this diet plan. It just doesn't seem right, even though she is healthy and growing fine with the bf.
I am actively pursuing a new pediatrician that can help, by actively listening and not tell me to feed her foods like egg yolk that I feel uncomfortable with. I don't want to wean dd yet, she will turn 1 yr in 2 mos. I want to make it at least that far. We need to find a mw, since we want another planned homebith and waterbirth, but where we live most mws cost about $4000. We don't have any money saved and have to move in Sept.1, so those cost are also a priority. So right now I have nobody to commiserate with at least and share my concerns and sadness, but I am looking and I will be strong and do whatever it takes to preserve my full womanhood and self-esteem thru all this. I refuse to becom a victim, even if I am emotionally having a very hard time right now.
Thanks for letting me vent my frustrations here, I really needed to.
Be well all you mommas,

Lisa