I just need to get it out.

[Joi]

I just found out that one of my only natural living relatives just died. My grandma died. my granny died. I can't make it to the services ( they are in CA I am in OR) I just wanted to get this out. I hope you all understand. My granny died.

[SoHappy]

Oh, honey, that is absolutely awful. I'm so sorry to hear this. I almost cried just reading this, because grandmas are so special. I'm wishing you peace and soothing memories.
Hugs.

[lisamarie]

Oh Sweetie, I'm so, so sorry. Is there anyway that you can do something here for her? A way to celebrate her life and to honor your feelings? A special dinner she used to make, lighting a candle in her honor and saying a prayer and perhaps letting a balloon float to the heavens with a note in it from you. Just some thoughts.

Please do feel free to come here and talk about her and your feelings as much as you need to.

Much Love & Hugs~

Lisa

[granolamom]

Oh Sweetheart,

I am so sorry about your lost. I am sending you love, light and prayers.


lisamarie's ideas were beautiful.


Peace to you,
Granolamom

[Joi]

Thank you so much. I found out that her funeral will be on Thursday so I will light my candles in memory of her. Again thank you for allowing me the room to let this out. I live about 1000 miles from all my family and friends. It can be pretty isolating but in here I can speak somewhat freely and that is comforting.

[sunmountain]

Please ignore this if it is not appropriate...

I was griefstricken for a long time after my nana died. it was a difficult time for me. I found her around me in lots of ways, though, and she even came to me in a dream. Keep your heart open, she is around...
be gentle with yourself

[dlb]

Angstmommy--

I am so sorry about your granny-- I am losing mine as well, and I can't immagine how hard it will be to say good bye when that time comes.

Don't feel any pressure to "get better." You have lost one of lifes most precious gifts, and you need time to grieve. But take to heart what Sunmountain says. Grandma is closer than you can ever know right now, and her love is still working in your life. But right now it hurts, and I am so sorry.


dlb

[Joi]

I am so sorry to hear that, De Anna. I think I am ready to share my story now. My granny is my great grandmother. My grandmother died when I was 6 months old. I have no contact with my bio dad so this family is all the blood I have.

She was placed in the hospital four years ago with alzheimers. She had gotten nothing but worse in there. It came to a point when she stopped/couldn't eat, talk, walk, or see. I would visit her as often as I coule while I lived in Vegas but it was so painful. I mean who would want to live like that? She was never on machines though, she just kept living.


so, news of her passing was hard but not for the "normal" reasons. I am somewhat relieved that she no longer is trapped. I am just very very sad that I am not able to celebrate her life with the rest of the family. Thank you all for listening (reading).


Joi

[JessicaS]

I am so sorry. Losing a grandmother is so painful. It is like losing your touch with your past. I had several living grandmothers at one point and now they are all gone. I miss them very much.

[MamaOui]

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