Hi.
I was very fortunate to not struggle with PPD and loved being a mom until we moved from Denver, Colorado(actually did 5 different moves since the time she was 2 weeks due to my husband's work and eneded up moving to a suburb of NYC in November) to Brooklyn,NY. I have moved a lot and never experienced homesickness to that point. It was crazy - like I would look at any of our belongings and remember where they were in our old house and would just begin sobbing. DD was 7 mo at the time and completely healthy. At 7 1/2 mo she began vomiting her entire stomach contents with her bowel movements and then just randomly. We started thinking it was reflux and then went all natural with the allergy thing. We ended up doing all kind of gi tests (scope, barium swallow with sb follow through) and everything was perfect.
So, nine months later she is still vomiting 1-5 times per day and is only eating this way expensive formula that is corn syrup based with high fat content that is formulated for kids with gi problems and multi allergies. Every two hours I have to sit with her in front of a wild animal video to get 1-2 oz in. I'm blessed that at 16 mo she is fine in all developmental areas except she only has 3 words. I don't know how she exists on so little and she hates to drink her formula (alas the video to distract and we've always had to distract to get food or bottle in). Forgot to mention that we wrecked both cars on the drive out here (someone hit me from behind) which totaled one so I don't have anyway to get around. Dh couldn't find work for months when we got here so we've gone through a big chunk of our savings and the medical bills have just started coming. I haven't been able to go back to work due to the intensity of feeding and cleaning up that dd needs.
I started zoloft and clonazepam 3 months ago because the anxiety and depression were so bad and there were times that I had dreams of just leaving and living with my dog in a remote mountain area of Colorado. I couldn't do anything to make my daughter better and the docs have no answers. We're only seeing a naturopath and chiropractor now, so at least all the treatments we're getting are natural.
My mother-in-law thinks that I should just be able to handle it all and doesn't understand the 6 weeks I spent mostly on the couch or in bed except when dd needed something. Seeing all the chubby monster babes on the street made me so jealous as their moms never thought twice about feeding them. The crazy thing is that I did everything all natural and organic for both dd and I and BF her through 12 mo until my BM turned to water from stress.
Have any of you mamas ever been through anything like this? I would love some feedback. We've seen 9 doctors and consulted with another 5 alternative practicioners on the phone and still have no answers. Can someone tell me that being depressed from all this is natural and not just being weak? I felt so bad after what my MIL said.
I was very fortunate to not struggle with PPD and loved being a mom until we moved from Denver, Colorado(actually did 5 different moves since the time she was 2 weeks due to my husband's work and eneded up moving to a suburb of NYC in November) to Brooklyn,NY. I have moved a lot and never experienced homesickness to that point. It was crazy - like I would look at any of our belongings and remember where they were in our old house and would just begin sobbing. DD was 7 mo at the time and completely healthy. At 7 1/2 mo she began vomiting her entire stomach contents with her bowel movements and then just randomly. We started thinking it was reflux and then went all natural with the allergy thing. We ended up doing all kind of gi tests (scope, barium swallow with sb follow through) and everything was perfect.
So, nine months later she is still vomiting 1-5 times per day and is only eating this way expensive formula that is corn syrup based with high fat content that is formulated for kids with gi problems and multi allergies. Every two hours I have to sit with her in front of a wild animal video to get 1-2 oz in. I'm blessed that at 16 mo she is fine in all developmental areas except she only has 3 words. I don't know how she exists on so little and she hates to drink her formula (alas the video to distract and we've always had to distract to get food or bottle in). Forgot to mention that we wrecked both cars on the drive out here (someone hit me from behind) which totaled one so I don't have anyway to get around. Dh couldn't find work for months when we got here so we've gone through a big chunk of our savings and the medical bills have just started coming. I haven't been able to go back to work due to the intensity of feeding and cleaning up that dd needs.
I started zoloft and clonazepam 3 months ago because the anxiety and depression were so bad and there were times that I had dreams of just leaving and living with my dog in a remote mountain area of Colorado. I couldn't do anything to make my daughter better and the docs have no answers. We're only seeing a naturopath and chiropractor now, so at least all the treatments we're getting are natural.
My mother-in-law thinks that I should just be able to handle it all and doesn't understand the 6 weeks I spent mostly on the couch or in bed except when dd needed something. Seeing all the chubby monster babes on the street made me so jealous as their moms never thought twice about feeding them. The crazy thing is that I did everything all natural and organic for both dd and I and BF her through 12 mo until my BM turned to water from stress.
Have any of you mamas ever been through anything like this? I would love some feedback. We've seen 9 doctors and consulted with another 5 alternative practicioners on the phone and still have no answers. Can someone tell me that being depressed from all this is natural and not just being weak? I felt so bad after what my MIL said.
