How's it going? Everyone getting super ansy? Everyone totally ready for the baby to come? Got your checklists all done?
We're pretty darn ready here. I can have a homebirth anytime now. Having contractions on and off, but nothing too serious. Still have a posterior baby. Tired a lot. Quite uncomfortable a lot. Weather is warming up, so I'd like to take this time to just enjoy the last of my last pregnancy. I do enjoy being pregnant. But I am now getting really excited to meet this little girl (still have no confirmation on the gender). I have a few projects left to do, but it's all super minor stuff. I'm just focusing on keeping the house clean and the fridge full for now. I think we're going to do my belly cast this weekend. I have an appointment at a spa on Monday with a girlfriend, which I'm really looking forward to. I think I'll enjoy these last few days quite nicely.
We had our 36 week home visit on Tuesday. We talked a lot about the birth, but I think that most of my answers were pretty ambiguous because I just don't have any idea how this is going to go. I'm feeling less sure of the idea that I'll have a quick, easy 2nd birth, probably especially since she's been posterior forever. I did birth art at a meeting on Monday and sort of explored the idea of being in birth, which is a very different perspective than having once given birth, though I'm not sure that I can explain that properly. I remembered the intensity of labor and that's really contributing to this skepticism about a quick, easier delivery. I remembered how dark labor was and just how - intense (there's no other word for it), and it's just such a weird place to go. I tried to think of what the positive side of that is and really all I could come up with is the survival of it. There's not, in my mind, a super positive, flowery aspect of giving birth - it's more just a challenge. One that's certainly incredibly worth it, and it's an experience that I treasure, of course, but I just can't see it as particularly full of light. Hoping that having a babe without problems will sort of give me a new perspective on that one. Or maybe I'm just a dark person. I see it all as something that enriches my life, just that it's incredibly challenging, including the raising the kid part. Maybe especially that. :LOL It's certainly beautiful, just it's got dirt in it - it's hard, it's challenging, it's full of obstacles - it's life. Maybe I'm getting a little "woo-woo" here...
Anyway, despite all that, I'm really looking forward to giving birth again and am ecstatic to meet my new baby and start my new life. I'm feeling anxious yet pretty patient. I'm feeling incredibly ambivalent, I guess! I want to give birth, but I'm willing to wait. I'm on edge and excited, but still fairly calm and have got things to occupy my time. My hormones are a little wacky, but most of the time I seem fairly normal. I think this is the stage where all systems are go and everything is pointed forward and it's just the countdown to rocketing forth into the unknown. Everything is thus chock full of anticipation. I am saturated with it. So there's a touch of nervous energy in the air as I make my way through the mundane, through my daily tasks of familial upkeep. I am ready and I am waiting.
We're pretty darn ready here. I can have a homebirth anytime now. Having contractions on and off, but nothing too serious. Still have a posterior baby. Tired a lot. Quite uncomfortable a lot. Weather is warming up, so I'd like to take this time to just enjoy the last of my last pregnancy. I do enjoy being pregnant. But I am now getting really excited to meet this little girl (still have no confirmation on the gender). I have a few projects left to do, but it's all super minor stuff. I'm just focusing on keeping the house clean and the fridge full for now. I think we're going to do my belly cast this weekend. I have an appointment at a spa on Monday with a girlfriend, which I'm really looking forward to. I think I'll enjoy these last few days quite nicely.
We had our 36 week home visit on Tuesday. We talked a lot about the birth, but I think that most of my answers were pretty ambiguous because I just don't have any idea how this is going to go. I'm feeling less sure of the idea that I'll have a quick, easy 2nd birth, probably especially since she's been posterior forever. I did birth art at a meeting on Monday and sort of explored the idea of being in birth, which is a very different perspective than having once given birth, though I'm not sure that I can explain that properly. I remembered the intensity of labor and that's really contributing to this skepticism about a quick, easier delivery. I remembered how dark labor was and just how - intense (there's no other word for it), and it's just such a weird place to go. I tried to think of what the positive side of that is and really all I could come up with is the survival of it. There's not, in my mind, a super positive, flowery aspect of giving birth - it's more just a challenge. One that's certainly incredibly worth it, and it's an experience that I treasure, of course, but I just can't see it as particularly full of light. Hoping that having a babe without problems will sort of give me a new perspective on that one. Or maybe I'm just a dark person. I see it all as something that enriches my life, just that it's incredibly challenging, including the raising the kid part. Maybe especially that. :LOL It's certainly beautiful, just it's got dirt in it - it's hard, it's challenging, it's full of obstacles - it's life. Maybe I'm getting a little "woo-woo" here...
Anyway, despite all that, I'm really looking forward to giving birth again and am ecstatic to meet my new baby and start my new life. I'm feeling anxious yet pretty patient. I'm feeling incredibly ambivalent, I guess! I want to give birth, but I'm willing to wait. I'm on edge and excited, but still fairly calm and have got things to occupy my time. My hormones are a little wacky, but most of the time I seem fairly normal. I think this is the stage where all systems are go and everything is pointed forward and it's just the countdown to rocketing forth into the unknown. Everything is thus chock full of anticipation. I am saturated with it. So there's a touch of nervous energy in the air as I make my way through the mundane, through my daily tasks of familial upkeep. I am ready and I am waiting.
). My FIL stopped by today and said I looked like I swallowed a watermelon and should go running. :LOL My mom called this morning and got the answering machine. We had forgotten that DH used me as a scapegoat the other day to get out of work 
I am hoping all my attempts to start this aren't being put off til tomorrow or Saturday. My idea of fun is not being in someone elses house as labor begins. The house is clean and has stayed that way for sometime now! I am so proud of that! I was having a hard time doing anything for a bit and now that it's done it's so nice to be able to do one or two things in the morning and be done with it. My plan of having food in the freezer though has become null and void. My DH eats meat like crazy so anytime we have it in the house (with my intent to put it in a casserole) it goes in his mouth as quick as possible. Even if I got through and made the casserole it wouldn't stay frozen for long. :LOL
I really do not want to have to use her backup MW, so now I'm hoping things hold on for now....
Anyway, we're still here!
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Woo Hoo! Sending lots and lots of labor vibes your way!! I hope this is it for you!!!
