Is everyone off having their babies? - Page 2

[gingerlane]

I totally get what you mean, marsupial. I keep finding myself cuddled up with dd, just smelling her hair and thinking all these weepy thoughts about how in such a short time she'll be a big sister and I won't be able to focus on her as much. Dh and went out to lunch and a movie yesterday and I realized that may be the last time for a long time we get to do that, just the two of us. Part of me is content to just keep this baby tucked away and another is so eagar to meet this babe!

Soon enough, I say!

[robugmum]

I hear you. I'm vascilating wildly between extreme impatience and dread. I so want for this baby to be born safely, healthy and whole. I had a bunch of mamas from our Vancouver tribe at MDC over this morning to put together a care package for another fellow MDC mama. Her little boy (born May 13) has pretty severe brain damage. So bad that the doctors don't feel like he will live once they take him off life support. I don't know what happened. She had a home VBAC with nothing out of the ordinary. He had some breathing problems at birth and they put him on 02 and transferred him to hospital. Now, 6 days later they are all still there. We don't know if the brain damage happened during labour or was congenital or what. I can't imagine it was during labour because she would have transferred to hospital if there were problems wouldn't she? Her experience plus Coleslaw's has got me feeling really anxious for my baby to be born. For the first time ever, I've even entertained the thought of abandoning my plans for a second VBAC and scheduling a c-section. Of course, I would never actually do it, but the thought has crossed my mind. I need to find a way to feel happy and hopeful and positive again. I'm worried that the anxiety I'm feeling isn't good for my baby. What do you all do when you feel fearful or anxious?

[Fluffhead]

Originally Posted by robugmum

What do you all do when you feel fearful or anxious?

Cry. The last few days anyway....its been an emotional rollercoaster quite literally...fears not so much about birth but AFTER birth. Supposedly, my baby will have to have her foot corrected shortly after birth (she has a very mild clubfoot-it turns inward a bit) with a cast and as much as I have tried to educate and prepare for this, a selfish part of me doesn't want to sacrifice my babymoon time with her for it. Then I flip flop and worry that after everything Ive been through these last 9+ months, something will go wrong. I have had to do ALOT alot alot of meditating and focusing inward to recapture my confidence in my body during those fearful moments. Confidence that not only can my body birth this baby, but protect her the best it can. Hang in there.

[mightymoo]

Originally Posted by robugmum

For the first time ever, I've even entertained the thought of abandoning my plans for a second VBAC and scheduling a c-section. Of course, I would never actually do it, but the thought has crossed my mind. I need to find a way to feel happy and hopeful and positive again. I'm worried that the anxiety I'm feeling isn't good for my baby. What do you all do when you feel fearful or anxious?

I'm glad you expressed this. I am feeling the same way. Being 39+ weeks now, I can't help but ponder the fact that I could just schedule a c-section for anytime now if I wanted. I'm getting more freaked out about the possibility of something going wrong. I don't have anyone to talk to about it that will really understand - if I talk to DH, he just says 'So do you want to schedule the c-section?' - I don't! (And actually in a way that helps, because having him vocalize it like that makes me really see I don't want to do it) Really I just want to be confident again in what I'm doing and not worry. I'm glad I set myself up a great support team because if I had to be the steady rock in the current of providers pushing me to get a c-section I don't know that I could resist right now.

As it is, I have to decide what I want to do at 42 weeks - given I went 42.5 last time (and was induced) its a very real possiblity that we will get there with no labor - at that point I will have to keep pushing to stay pregnant or give in to the c-section. I'm mostly trying not to think about it right now.

ETA - Oh, I wanted to add that I noticed my fear of something going wrong increasing recently since I had been watching those baby shows on TV. None of them are about VBACs or UR necessarily, but I think it still has a subtle effect on my psyche, so I cut that out. (In the past I have seen a psychologist for anxiety and we found that TV especially affected my anxiety - if I watched the nightly news I would have a hard time sleeping for weeks anxious about something - so I try to think carefully about what I'm watching and what is influencing me subconsciously)

[Debstmomy]

Mighty Moo & Robugmum, I totally get you both. I too could go back to my OB today & say, I want a c-sec & he would GLADLY do it! It is NOT what I want at all, but all this waiting can be so hard! My back is achy, I am crampy, I am nauseaus. I am no longer at the feel to good to have a baby stage. That is a good sign, I keep telling myself. I just want this to happen. I keep trying to surrender.
Does anyone else hurt when baby moves? I swear I do not remember that from before. I do not think she is any bigger than my last 2 but ugh! (In fact she is measuring smaller this week, which means she is dropping) I just try to remember her stretching is a sign of good health & that she is getting ready for her big event too!
Anyway, I am ready. I am tired of waiting. I feel yucky. Lets get this thing on the road!!!!

[Fluffhead]

Originally Posted by Debstmomy

My back is achy, I am crampy, I am nauseaus. I am no longer at the feel to good to have a baby stage.
Does anyone else hurt when baby moves? I swear I do not remember that from before. Anyway, I am ready. I am tired of waiting. I feel yucky. Lets get this thing on the road!!!!

I could have easily written parts of that Cristina. At the expense of trying to not complain, I have avoided posting about this but WTH is up with the nausea and is this normal? I feel like I am in my first trimester again...and its not inwaves here and there like a few weeks ago but its intense and very uncomfortable. It's really hard to eat feeling like that...it's really hard to do anything feeling like you are about to upchuck at any moment. I am so glad you said something bc I feel a little bit better. I hear ya on the crampy, back achy stuff too. On top of all of that, (here comes TMI) with the cramping and BH, my vaginal muscles are cramping up really tightly too....which really hurts. It's like menstrual cramps times 50...I swear it is. Then there is the achy flu-achy feeling. Oh and the constant wiping of nasty mucous everytime I use the bathroom (which was all blood tinged last night). \ I didnt have this the last two times....I went into labor and that was that (of course I was induced)...this has drug on and on since Wednesday when mw did the stretch and sweep thang. *sigh* guess that expense of not complaining didnt get too far. LOL :LOL

Anyone heard from Lizabethian or Eaglevoice?

[CluckyInAZ]

The nausea is totally normal. From what I understand it is caused by the hormones that make the bowels loose toward the end of pregnancy so you can clean out before having the baby.

[annakiss]

Originally Posted by marsupial

Anyone heard from Lizabethian or Eaglevoice?

I'm sure they're off having they're babies.

[Eaglevoice]

Originally Posted by marsupial

Anyone heard from Lizabethian or Eaglevoice?

I'm still here!!!! :LOL Just as uncomfortable and yucky as everyone else I'm jealous that some of you are getting blood tinged mucous. I've got nothing. I keep checking, turning on the light when I pee in the middle of the night to look and see if I've got any show... Nothing. I think I'll be here for a while still *sigh*

[Debstmomy]

Originally Posted by Eaglevoice

I'm still here!!!! :LOL Just as uncomfortable and yucky as everyone else I'm jealous that some of you are getting blood tinged mucous. I've got nothing. I keep checking, turning on the light when I pee in the middle of the night to look and see if I've got any show... Nothing. I think I'll be here for a while still *sigh*

: Except I do not turn on the light, but I can tell it is not there!