med vs. bf'ing question
hey ladies, im kelly, 30, sahm to 2 girls,

kya (8-30-02) and carson

(6-15-04). great husband

life is pretty swell,

i've been on wellbutrin since jan. and was on paxil before that right after carson was born (for postpartum depression). i was diagnosed w/ bipolar I when i was in my early 20's. im a rapid cycler, which means instead of having "mania" for 2 wks then "depression" for 2 wks, i'll do it all in one day!! like im on a major rollercoaster! well i've not had an episode since before i was pregnant w/ my oldest. i got off my meds, got pregnant, bf till i was pregnant w/ my youngest and am still bf'ing. carson, my youngest now bf's about 3x a day and im wondering if my imbalance is becoming more "pronounced" because of the shift in my hormonal levels? i had a very bad episode this weekend (last week ws very stressful

and my dh and i have discussed me getting back on a mood stabilizing med. i used to take depakote before i was preg. and have done tons of online research about bf'ing and taking a "mood stabilizer" i've read that depakote is approved by the amer. academy of ped. but am still ?? anybody have that experience or know a better med to take for mania while still bf'ing. i know that i might be faced w/ having to give it up, but im really not ready, and neither is my dd....Help!!
hope you ladies can help...it is a very hard decision, but i know i can be a "better" mommy to my girls if im "stable". my episodes usually exhibit themselves as an intense frustration

when the source of the frustration wasn't that big of a deal. i just don't want my girls to think that their mom is "uptight" or "mean" it really makes me want to cry when i see my oldest's face if i yell or scream about something so inconsequential. it doesn't happen everyday, but seems like its happening more and more. i know that being a parent is frustrating, but i don't want miss this time and wonder why i waited so long to "be happy" it goes so quick already!!
thanks ladies....
kelly

: