30+TTC 1yearish or more June

[Ary99]

Here we are, a fresh new month. Things are gonna change. . .I can feel it.


Hil

[Annie]

Dropping by to subscribe

Ary Thanks for starting the new thread.

The end of this month is my birthday! I'll be 33. I'm feeling so old! I hope I get the best b-day present of all, a baby! In fact I hope we all get that this month, that'd make great fathers' day presents too.

Hope everyone's doing well,

[waiting4baby]

Sorry I have been gone so long . . .

Hello all you wonderful, kind, and wise women - sorry I was AWOL during May. I just needed some self-pity time.

Just a short update - I finally had to take Provera to start af after my ovarian cyst. I then got af on Mother's Day and a phone call from my uberfertile little sister with 3 children (who NEVER calls me) to chat about this and that, and then to ask me point blank how our babymaking was going and had we ever considered adoption??? "There are so many needy kids," she said, "and you don't really have to have your own baby if your body isn't going to give it to you. Maybe you are only meant to be an adoptive mother." Nice mother's day present, sis of 3 unplanned pregnancies. :

I learned the next week that I have a uterine polyp that needs to be removed - it's right in the spot that most fertilized eggs implant. Lucky me! But, they won't be able to schedule the surgery until July, so another few months of futile TTC'ing. And, the week after that, I learned that the friend who loaned me her fertility monitor won't be needing it back because she is due in July. She got pregnant without trying right after she loaned it to me. Uggh!

So . . . I've been in an unpleasant mood, to say the least, for the last month. It seems that this nearly 3 year TTC journey has been futile. I've felt like curling up into a ball and blocking out the world entirely for days on end. I've been lurking, but not posting. I think I forgot that you women, unlike everyone else in my life, would provide the support I needed. So, I'm back and feeling grateful to have all of you. I will do personals later this week - there has been a lot going on here!



Annie - How do you know your sister's cats are gay?? :LOL

[allismom]

Can somebody tell me the meaning of the subject line of this thread??

I am 35 and TTC #2 so I think this is where I 'belong' but I am not sure.
Had first DD at 33 with no problems, expecting the same this time around!!!

Shari

[Annie]

Welcome back

Im sorry you had to deal with your sister and the uber fertile friend, and really sorry about your polype, I hope the surgery goes well and you get a baby to implant there soon.

My sister's cats are always making out like crazy, they lie cheak to cheek and 'kiss' eachother so cute
ETA: they're both boys and love eachother so much, and they're so cute. My sister wants a tshirt that says 'my cats are gay and I love them' :LOL

[Annie]

Welcome Allismom, the subject line refers to those of us who have been TTC a really long time, for more than a year, as well as being over thirty. There are some here who arnt quite thirty, I believe, but have been TTC more than a year. All are welcome. Good luck TTC.

Wow I dont think i've used TTC in one post so many time before

[Sleepymama]

just posting to subscribe. My update is on the last thread.
http://mothering.com/discussions/sho...&postcount=211

Ary, what's going to change is it's going to get mother- HOT and as I recall from getting PG in July last year, m/s in the desert summer heat ain't fun. But I'll take it

[Ary99]

Ya know, my "Things are gonna change. . .I can feel it" was actually a little joke to myself. It's from the song "Loser" by Beck, and not because I think ANY of us are losers, we have all felt that way at some point along this road.

And yeah, I'm in South Texas. It'll be hotter than a mofo before we know it

[djs_girl517]

Well, ok. I've finally caught this thread at the beginning. I'm gonna try to hang out for a while. Quick update:

I met with a really great doc last week. He has me set to have my progesterone checked in two weeks. He said if that comes back normal, we'll talk about "a special kind of x-ray." I can only assume he means HSG. I'm just thrilled to have the ball rolling and that he seems to be a good doc. (I'm going through the VA, so don't have a lot of options). I've also joined LA Weightloss to shed some pounds, get healthier, and feel better about myself.

I think we're going to take some time off. DH and I need to focus a little bit more on our relationship and I need to get healthier physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Even though we're not currently actively trying, I hope you ladies don't mind me hanging around. I'd like to try to get to know you ladies better. It seems that when I'm feeling okay, I feel too shy to talk to people, so that when I get down, I feel like I have no one to turn to because I haven't worked to cultivate that support.

Annie - my b-day is the 21st! I do hope you get a GREAT b-day present this year.

W4B - I can relate about people being insensitive about Mother's Day. My SIL sent about 20 pics on M-day of my "unplanned" neice, and my mom couldn't understand why that upset me.

Ary - What part of South Texas are you in? I'm originally from Amarillo. I live in Florida now and sometimes I think I'd trade the humidity for 100+ degrees. Then I remember that my mom is in Texas :LOL

[allismom]

Thanks for the explanation. We've only been TTC for about 1 week so I guess I don't belong here!

Good vibes to all of you!

[AdinaL]

Nothing new here...into month four without a period.

Blarg.

Working my ass off....which is great, maybe I can fit into a smaller size of pants when I get done this summer.

:LOL

[Johanna]

L'Nayim - (did I butcher the spelling?) I actually have been thinking about you recently! I'm glad you popped your head back in here. You've been missed! We all need some self pity time I'll need mine soon enough as Brett will be in the academy from early August until just after my birthday in November. Meh. I'm so sorry about the advice of the uberfertile. Its rarely good advice. Even if it is, its just not needed or wanted most of the time. Not even useful, really. Its really easy for people to say "just wait" or "just adopt" when they don't have to do either. I'm so sorry to hear about the uterine polyp. I hope the removal is simple, easy and assists you productively on the road to getting your little one I know must be waiting in the sidelines. You're an amazing girl and I'm glad you're here again

Annie - We call our cat gay all the time. I actually bought a barbie carrier for him but he was too fat for it He's a pretty hefty cat.

sleepymama - I hope it gets warm here. I'll just die if its 30 degrees here forever! I want a summer goshdarnit!

Jamie - Oh feel free to lurk. I think at some point all of us fade in and out. Some times this rollercoaster makes it pretty difficult to chime in. We're a pretty good lot here. We lack the drama (thank goodness) that I see in a lot of groups. Can't tell you my relief in that. And congrats on getting the ball rolling.

allismom - all are welcome. However I will say we tend to gravitate here when things get a little more difficult. But I'll say it again. All are welcome. I'm not quite 30 but we've been trying for some time now (2 years, with a few months off because of living in different places). But either way we are a pretty understanding bunch of girls who are ultra supportive and I feel pretty secure saying you wouldn't be turned away

Adina - I'm so sorry about your long ass cycle (era ). I hope it ends soon. I'll be thinking of you!

As for me...... Well, if I say much of anything I'll just be repeating myself. Just been knitting and puttering around the house waiting for my babysitting job to start. Feeling discouraged on the TTC front. 2 more cycles till he's off to Sitka and I'll be spermless for 3.5 months. Not that its doing any good being around him anyway. As I'm obviously not any more pregnant than I was at the beginning of this. And not a doctor in hundreds of miles to help me Sorry to be so pessimistic right now. Just in a tough spot. I'm happy though, in many ways. I have wonderful, supportive friends/family and I cannot begin to tell you how lucky I feel in those regards.

[chiromama]

: Welcome back W4B. I've missed you! I've been meaning to email you back, but have been busy. Sorry about the polyp, I'll be thinking of you. We should get together again! Camping???

I had my LH checked today, beginning surge, so I should IUI friday morning. We shall see.

[squeakermansmom]

anyone ever had a failed endometrial biopsy? i did yesterday-she couldn't find the opening of my cervix and since she's not a dr (physicians ass't at the RE) she didn't want to force it (um, thanks!)

WHAT?!?!?! i do paps and enodmetrial biopsies all day at work and i just have to say.....it's one thing to have a failed endometrial biopsy b/c you can't get the catheter thru the cervix but not b/c you can't find the cervix.!!! :LOL scary.....

waiting for baby & jamie - so glad to see you both back here....i've been thinking about you both recently.

w4b - sorry about the polyp....hopefully removing the polyp will be the difference for you.

sleepymama - congrats on the successful LLL conference! we are going to the BIG, international LLL conference at the end of this month and i am sooo excited. i'll be attending the physician's conference first (so i can get work to pay for part of the trip) and then we will be selling our toys at the conference. the booth was very expensive so i'm hoping we at least break even. : i'm also a little worried about being surrounded by a bunch of pregnant bellies but hoping to keep it all in perspective. and i can't wait to take ds to some of the great museums there.....

now don't laugh...... i just read in "The Infertility Cure" that yams are the 'natural' Clomid - anyone try eating a bunch in the follicular phase?????

[djs_girl517]

speaking of books, I just read Conquering Infertility by Alice D. Domar, Ph.D.

from the cover:

Dr. Alice Domar's Mind/Body Guide to Enhancing Fertility and Coping with Infertility --- Based upon her world-renowned clinical program and groundbreaking research

from inside the dust cover:

Dr. Domar's message of hope: "You will be happy again. Life will become joyful again. And somehow, some way, if you want to become a parent, you will."

Dr. Domar runs a Mind/Body clinic for infertile women. She has a lot of insight and I thoroughly enjoyed the book. I definately recommend it. Just wanted to pass that along.

[squeakermansmom]

Originally Posted by djs_girl517

speaking of books, I just read Conquering Infertility by Alice D. Domar, Ph.D.

She has a lot of insight and I thoroughly enjoyed the book. I definately recommend it. Just wanted to pass that along.

i second that! awesome book!

[SweetTeach]

Hey everyone,
I thought I'd get in here on the first page. A lot of us are definitely going through some rough times!!!

L'Nayim, I'm glad you're back. I've been thinking about you! And guess what- I'm going to be here when you come in July so I'm looking forward to giving you a real hug. But for now, and to your sister! WTH?

Korin, : : and I don't do this very much by I am spreading some for your up and coming IUI.

Adina, at least you have something to "keep your mind off of" your 4 month cycle. : Have you ever had a workup with a naturopath or something along those lines? Wouldn't it be great if they could tell you-oh, your liver is out of whack- take these herbs and you'll be in balance again...If only, and if only you had the boatloads of $ it takes to see these great alternative providers.

Sleepymama, glad to hear the LLL conference was good. Does this mean your business is back up and running now or soon? That's cool that you got to connect with another mama who has a baby with a heart problem.

Johanna, I started shopping at my local food co-op again and I thought of you when I looked through some of the vegan/raw treats. Are you able to be a vegan in Alaska these days?

djs, welcome back. Good luck on your weight loss and getting yourself into a good head space. What a tough journey.

Jodi, I bet it will be hard to be around all the pg bellies at the LLL conference. Yesterday I got annoyed when I saw that someone I know from the neighborhood that I haven't seen in a long time and her partner walked by with a newborn in a baby bjorn. Why was I annoyed, might you ask? Well, on a terrible level, I was mad because I thought to myself "Even lesbians have no trouble having a live baby and here I am..." I feel so bad that this is what popped into my head, but it's not the first time. I live in a neighborhood nicknamed the "stroller mafia" by people who don't live here, so it's pretty intense how many pg people and young families there are. Now you know that I'm pg so that line of thinking shouldn't even make sense, but hey, what can I say?

Annie, Hope you have a great birthday month!

I am annoyed for non-ttc/pg related reasons so I thought I'd share with you:

~The discussion board I administrate for stillbirth mamas was severely hacked into on Tuesday and the board is all jacked up. We've lost all threads save a very few from last April '04 when the board began. Memberships were deleted, $ disappeared from the community chest....we are told that some, possibly not all of the info can be restored because the hackers also deleted some of their backup files. What the fuck? We PAY for this service!!!!! I am beyond frustrated. If I wasn't pg, I would have had a smoke by now, and I don't smoke!

~My fellowship has ended (along with my paid-for health insurance) and my contract at my job doesn't start until Feb 1, '06, so I need to purchase COBRA to keep our insurance for the next 6 months. You know, since I'm seeing a midwife, a perinatologist, a back up OB, a hematologist and starting today (yay) a chiropractor. Also, my meds for my disorder cost $20/shot and I have to take it every day until 6 weeks post partum. So, to keep family insurance like I have now, it would cost us $1279/month. Needless to say we will have to drop down to individual coverage for me only, which will still cost us $2500 for the 6 months. Oh, and I did say I won't be working for that six months, right?

Well, last night I insisted that dh take me to McDonald's because I wanted chicken mcnuggets. I proceeded to order a 20 piece and I inhaled them no, not all of them!) in the car on the way home. : They were so good! I haven't Micky D's since I saw Supersize me and I wasn't eating it very much before then either. Now that it's the next morning I'm waiting to see how much my gut will thank me for that. :LOL

[AdinaL]

ST - no kidding....an herb that would just whack me back into balance. I guess "whack" isn't the correct terminology when talking about herbs...maybe gently guide my body back into balance.

I haven't been to a naturopath about it. I keep thinking I am gonna go - and then I move, or go to my summer gig or something. Although the nurse I saw at my annual is concerned that I have never had regular periods. I am thinking about getting on the Pill eventually. At least that way I will hopefully lower my risk of endometrial cancer. Just gotta get a kid popped out first....or not.

That sucks about the board!!! Hackers can make such a huge mess.

[Velveteen]

Glad your back W4B; we missed you!

Dj's girls, I'm glad your here. I definately hear you about cultivating the support. I also second that book reccomendation, it is great!

Jo, thinking of you way out in the boondocks!

Still 'recovering' from the pg announcement of my near neighbor. I had to tell her congrats yesterday, as I have been disappearing when I see her. I had already cried enough that I was able to muster the needed fake enthusiasm.
This cycle my dh things volume of bd'ing is the answer Oh, if that were only it!

Ary, is today your phone conference?? I am really interested in your impressions, because I may do it too, and I want to see what you think.

[Sleepymama]

ST I have leftovers that I will be posting on the site this week--diapers, wool covers, diaper bags & tie dyed clothes. I also have lots of mama pads--wool backers and hemp snap on pads. I'm waiting a few weeks for custom orders because I'm sooooo tired of sewing and I have to wait for my massive rolls of hemp to arrive thanks for asking!!

I forgot to add that I joined a gym and have been working out w/a trainer. All I can say is OUCH!!! I have about 100lbs to lose to be on the doc's charts but ideally would like to lose 30 or 40 (to lose my zoloft "fat and happy pill" weight and get back where I was before I got PG with my son). but for now...ow my abs and legs hurt!!!