I will officially start my prenatal care next week (when I will be 5 weeks real/7 weeks obstetric). I have a hopsital HMO with a midwife there. I don't plan to stick with her, though. She's great, but I want to do a homebirth. I'm not sure why I'm starting with her . . . maybe because it's covered by my insurance and I don't have to shell out any extra money to start the process.
I went in earlier last time I was pregnant 'cause I figured they had some important info to give me. There wasn't much I didn't already know from my obsessive reading. Since that was just a few months ago, I am feeling pretty relaxed right now. I am really excited though and hoping to get an "everything's okay" summary from the hospital midwife so I can then start interviewing homebirth midwives.
Noah'sMommy, I, too, think you can pull off a homebirth. I've never given any kind of birth so I can't speak from experience, but I echo what others say about needing to believe in oneself and feel comfortable with one's choice. I first heard about modern homebirth from the friend/colleague of my partner who was planning one with her first preg. She began telling me about it and I immediately found myself fascinated and supportive. Over the next year or so I read a lot of books, including most of those mentioned by Ella'sMama. I'd also recommend Peggy Vincent's Chronicles of a Modern Midwife. I found it helped me to read stories of homebirths and see the commonalities in them and also the differences. It's given me a tremendous amount of confidence in myself.
This might be a weird thing to think/feel and to write, but another thing that has given me confidence in my ability to birth at home is the fact that I miscarried at home. My midwife says there are a lot of commonalities between laboring and miscarrying (but she also emphasized that it was not the same). While my experience only lasted about 2 hours and I'm sure wasn't nearly as painful or draining as labor, it did give me practice in surrendering to my body, dealing with contractions, etc., etc. I did it without painkillers, on my toilet and in my bathtub, with the supportive help of my partner. Well, I hope that wasn't TMI.