leaving here, update

[gabry]

I had my first ob appt. today (9 weeks) and since the doc couldn't hear a heartbeat she did an US. It showed the embryo had stopped growing at about 7 weeks. I take progesterone, so that's probably what maintained the uterine lining so long. I'm going to try and let nature take its course, and not take meds or get a d&c if all goes well. Relatively speaking ...
After sadness, my overwhelming emotion is that I feel 'tricked', like all this time I thought/hoped I was having a normal healthy pregnancy, and my body made me believe it, and it wasn't true. Also, anxiety, I'm almost 35 and my son is almost 2, and time might be running out and I don't want my kids so far apart, and what if really I'm not all that fertile but my first pregnancy was a 'chance event'. It'll take time, I'm sure...
Wish you all the best,

[Camellia]

Gabry. I am so sorry for your loss

[gethane]

I'm so sorry.

[vegetalien]

i am so sorry.

take care of yourself. and, not to scare you, but if ever you start to feel like you may be bleeding more than you should, go to the hospital right away. i'm just saying that because i wish someone had told me, i ended up ok, but i waited way too long when i miscarried and ended up losing a lot of blood. in most cases of course nature runs it's course just fine.

[EllasMummy]

I am so so sorry.

[augustmom]

Gabry,

Hang in there. the same thing happened to me in march. I was 10 weeks pg, though and the baby had died at 6 weeks. It is tough and painful, but you will feel better about it over time. I am almost 35 too and I know that I will get pg again. Just give it time and be good to yourself. you're not alone.

B

[LoveMyLil'B]

I am so sorry.

[Aurora]

I am so sorry!

[Getz]

I am so sorry!

[because]

Oh, gabry! I'm so sorry! I'll miss you. Take care of yourself

[Nature]

I'm sorry Gabry.
I know just how you feel as the same thing happened to me twice before. No bleeding, no warning.. nothing.

[krazy4mykids]

I am so sorry for your loss

[ehsclt]

Gabry, I send my condolences and hugs as well. I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your baby. Take good care and I'll miss you on this board,

Emily

[LolaEight]

I can't imagine what a hard time this is for you. I am so sorry. Take care of yourself. I hope everything turns out okay for you and for your family. *hugs*

[ozzyemm]

[Benji'sMom]

Originally Posted by gabry

time might be running out and I don't want my kids so far apart, and what if really I'm not all that fertile but my first pregnancy was a 'chance event'. It'll take time, I'm sure...
Wish you all the best,

Poor mama, that's a lot to deal with. I'm sorry...

[Willowrose]

I am so very sorry for your loss
I pray that you can find peace

[MaggiesMom]

[beachcomber]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.
I wish you strength, and healing.

[gabry]

Thanks, mommas, for all your kind words and support. It really does help.
On Monday I had called the ob to clarify exactly what they had seen on u/s, and she said they had been twins that stopped developing. Twins! On Tuesday evening I started cramping and bleeding, and lost them. I'm physically doing well, emotionally I will be. I am very grateful that my ob did not push for d&c, and that I was able to do this by myself, with dh support. I do not wish this on anybody, of course, but if you are ever in that situation, something to consider.