My faith is starting to wain!

[Debstmomy]

Why is it that at one moment, I am very confident in my decisions & then the next it is all gone?????
I know my baby is safe. My midwife is checking me & the baby 2ce a week. My health is fine. Baby is healthy & thriving.
Why then do I feed myself all that crap about being late being dangerous??
It is such a vicious cycle!!! It is driving me crazy! I can not stand the voices in my head. I wish it all to go away & just trust this process. Why does the medical community still have such power over me, when I have worked so hard to avoid it???
I guess I just needed to cry & vent to those that understand. I am tired of well meaning people saying the damnest most stupid words to me. UGH!!!
Ok off to bed & have a good cry & have DH hold me!
Sorry for the rant.

[AngelBee]

You are doing great!

[captain crunchy]

still with you hon...

we are in the same boat together... my hubby and I just got back from : wal-mart... only because it is the only place open at like 3 am and I wanted to walk SO bad to try to get this labor started...

Have faith...you are not alone!

[CathToria]

hang in there mamas!!!! :

[Aeriane]

*shrugs* have a glass of wine? I dunno, I was really late one time and part of what I thought the problem was I was so keyed up about it. I had a glass of wine one night and was in labor by morning. I seriously think the relaxing helped. I don't condone alcohol during pregnancy but *shrugs* I just did it that one time and baby was born the next day. Just my 2 cents. Kitty

[gingerlane]

Originally Posted by Aeriane

*shrugs* have a glass of wine? I dunno, I was really late one time and part of what I thought the problem was I was so keyed up about it. I had a glass of wine one night and was in labor by morning. I seriously think the relaxing helped. I don't condone alcohol during pregnancy but *shrugs* I just did it that one time and baby was born the next day. Just my 2 cents. Kitty

My midwife also suggests this route. It's OK to be scared... just acknowledge it, look at it, own it, and move through it. You are one day closer to holding your baby in your arms... heck, maybe your baby is already in your arms!

Keep us posted!

[darkstar]

You know I kind of feel the same way. I know this baby will come, when s/he is ready but...OMG. I feel like it has been forever. I feel like , its so hot and my midwife is going out of town on Sunday. I went to the health food store and bought some blue cohosh, and EPO. I was going to do the vaginal EPO last night but something told me to wait. I have decided not to do the cohosh either. I talked to a friend that had her baby she swears by castor oil and root beer YUCK. When I woke up this morninig I had a big chunck of my plug on the toilet paper, so mabey this is my time. Figures the hottest day of the year. Well my fellow may mamas...We can do this.


darkstar