30+ TTC 1 yearish JULY - Page 11

[mimid]

Welcome Kathteach! I hope you are with our group for a very short time!!

Glad you had a good Dr. appt, Ary. I love having a doc who *gets* it. It just makes me feel like I'm actually doing something and not just spinning my wheels.

W4B, good luck on your surgery. I hope it goes as smooth as mine!

For me, just waiting until Friday. I checked The Fertility Sourcebook out of the library and wish I had found it sooner! What a great resource it would have been 2 years ago.

to all!

[MamaBug]

Thanks Adina! Now I just need to figure out what the heck I am doing! :LOL

kathteach hope your stay here is a short one

W4B the very very best of luck to you

polka I am still hoping that it happens for you this time.

Ary I am so glad to hear that you had a positive experience!

[Johanna]

Welcome Kathteach! As other's have said, I hope your stay is short and sweet.

L'Nayim - I hope your surgery is rather uneventful and very successful

Adina - lets keep positive thoughts towards having a bunch of awesome eggs! I'll be thinking of you.

Of course I'm thinking of all of you (even when I'm not posting) I'm such a lurker

[polka123]

cd 1

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W4B - good luck & take care !

anyone testing soon?

[squeakermansmom]

hey all. sorry i haven't been posting alot on here lately. we got crappy news yesterday. dh had his repeat s/a. his morphology went from 5% to 0%. yeah, that's right - zero. : i'm holding out hope it was the couple times dh went in the hot tub while on vacation. i'm really wondering if i had a brain lapse back then....why on earth would i have said that was ok? i'm so kicking myself now. so i know hot tubs affect sperm but would they affect them that much? anyone with any info on this, please share. no antisperm antibodies, so that's good, of course it probably doesn't make any difference if all the sperm are misshapen.

so we're going to be sooooo good for 2 more months (back on vitamins, acupuncture, no soda, exercising, etc) and then we'll retest. if it is still low then we'll move towards IVF w/ ICSI which would really be our only option to get pregnant. not sure where i'm coming up with $12,000, but dh isn't willing to consider donor sperm.

why is this heartache happening to all of us? it's so not fair.

[Ary99]

Polka, I'm sorry. We were all holding out hope.

Sqeakersmom, I feel your pain, I really do. DH and I are coming to the realization that our "unexplained IF" sounds like it will be explained by the SCSA (DNA fragmentation) test that we are scheduling. Everything from our poor IVF response to the miscarriage point to that.

My elation and finding what is likey the cause of our IF was quickly replaced by rage at my DH for having been a less than willing participant in the ttc jounrey. I'm the one who's done the research, made the appointments, have the painful and invasive procedures and surgeries and bought the suppliments he "forgets" to take. What if the suppliments would have helped? I just want to scream.

[May-lily]

KathTeach: welcome, I hope you learn lots of things you'll never need here!

Polka: sorry dear, be good to yourslef

Ary: I SO get that rage feeling!!! dh is awful at taking care of himself when he's sick and his involvement in the ttc is barrely 10% of mine. He asked me again the other what would happen for the IUI thing next week. We've done 2 already, dont you think he should know??? it will be at another place but the basics are the same, duh!

Squeaker, I have the opposite situation. I would definitely try IVF even though we dont have the money upfront, we could most likely pay it off in a year or two. One of the reasons he's not super involved is that he thinks nothing can really help his male factor (not that he's done any research) and he thinks we should "just" do donor. I'm more attached to his genes than he is!!

I"m super crabby at him today because he got stung by bees yesterday and ended up in the ER because he had not gotten the epipen he was prescribed after his last bee sting. He even decided to go to basketball last night because he "felt better" and the result is that the swelling has now doubled and he cant be at work today (no sick pay, of course). He does really stupid things and then I have to rearrange my life to look after him. GGRRR....I dont want a big baby, I want a husband, and then a little baby!!!

Today is also the second anniversary of my due date. My baby should be two. I sent him (I always felt it was a boy) some prayers this morning. Of course, like the anniversary of the pregnancy and the miscarriage, this is not a date anyone remembers but me.

hugs to all

M

[Annie]

Cd 1

I am *so* annoyed, disapointd, you name it. I was really hoping this was the month. But oh no, so now it's onto more clomid, and IUI.Yeah I know I said we were going to do IUI last month but we screwed up our schedule, and dh works odd hourse, so there you go.

Oh and I got this gem from my mother "It's selfish for you to try to conceive, because alicia's baby is supposed to be mine, god doesnt want me to get pregnant, but wants her to be (even with smoking drinking,etc). Oh yeah and god doesnt want me to get pregnant cuz the birth will kill me because I supposedly have a heart conditionand am short?!! WTF She hasnt had a day of med school in her life, and she's known we've been TTC for over three years and never mentioned this so called medical advice, so what? She didnt care about my health before? THe entire team of cardiologist, reproductive endos, etc at a university hostpital have looked at my heart with TTC in mind and it's fine. aparently she either thinks i'm too stupid to think about my health or she's being manipulative. Must be the latter.

Oh yeah and all this time mom was saying this she knew the baby was ej's and that he will never sign teh release papers for us to adopt so wth. Not that it matters, as ej would give the kid a great life, he's wanted to have kids with alicia for years, etc.
I swear Im never talking to my mom again, this is not an isolated thing, it just makes me realize that she's toxic, and likes to make people so miserable they literally cant stand life, that's how she gets her jollies, seriously.That's it, i'm not putting up with this crap any more, I'm done with her.

So overall I'm having a really crappy time, but as with all the other horendous crap my mother has done to me, i'll survive it. I'm sorry if i'm bringing everyone down but just needed to vent and know that you'll understand.

Thanks

[chiromama]

Annie, I can't believe your mother would speak to you that way. : For crying out loud!!!!! ugh.
I am off for a 4 day camping trip with family. we are planning on 'coming out' to the family about the IF and IVF... I'll tell you how awful it goes when i get back.

In the meantime..

[AdinaL]

Grrrr.....Annie that is bad.

Dr's offfice just called. E2 is 907. 7 really good follicles on the right and 4+ on the left. Plus a bunch of smaller ones. I have to go in in the morning for another u/s and bloodwork. They will decide tomorrow if I trigger tomorrow night for a Sunday retrieval or Saturday night for a Monday retrieval. So there you go....onward. Hopefully only a few more shots to go! WOOHOO!

[mimid]

Nothing new for me...just waiting for my appointment.

to Annie and Polka on :AF and to Squeak on DH's results. If you are like me, the waiting will be hard, but the time will go so quickly and soon he'll be retesting with good results!!!

Ary and May-Lily, I know what you mean about DH and his uncooperativeness. My MIL says that all men are little babies so you get one automatically when you marry. Which sucks big time!!

Good luck "coming out", Chiromama. I hope it goes smoothly and the family is very supportive.

Yippee on the eggs, Adina!!!

Looks like we should be getting a bunch of late-summer BFPs!!!

[squeakermansmom]

sounds like a few of us have some issues with our dh's uncooperativeness. dh constantly forgets his vitamins and it drives me crazy. it makes me feel so powerless about the situation.

adina - i can't believe your in the middle of an IVF cycle. WOW! Sounds like things are going well!

annie, polka

waiting 4 baby - good luck on your surgery tom!

Off to research IVF, ICSI and selling my body to earn the money :LOL (kidding).....

[chiromama]

Well I have to admit, that my husband is amazing. He was more than willing to do the tests, take the meds (although he does complain about the bad porn at the 'masturbatorium') and everything. I guess I'm lucky. But then again, I think I lucked out all around.. he does the dishes, helps with the laundry, vacuums half the time.... Yeah.. I'm definitley lucky.

Oh.. and today is our 9th anniversary.

[kathteach]

You mean my DH isn't the only one who never takes his vitamins?! This news makes me feel better.




Annie,
I''m so sorry you had to hear that from your mom. I'm angry too, for you! I can definitely sympathize on the toxic mom situation. I've been having anxiety for weeks because a visit is coming up.

[AdinaL]

My dh is great about everything.

Korin - R just needs to hush about the bad porn...I saw the porn where G had to do the deed...it was a Playboy from about 4 years ago!!! :LOL

[chiromama]

Oh yeah. Everytime I hear him complain about the DVD not having fast forward.. I remind him that his 'duty' involves girl on girl, and happiness in a cup. Mine involves at least a catheter and possibly heavy sedation. I always win.

[mimid]

Mine likes to pretend it never happened. :LOL When I say something, I get *The Look*

[AdinaL]

Yep - if the get an orgasm...they don't get to complain.

[Velveteen]

Annie, Grrr on the toxic mom situation. I can't beleive that.

Adina, this is so exciting! To have hope (and eggs!) like that is terrific!

Happy 5th birthday to my son!! He asked me for a baby today, and it just killed me. I so hope THIS can be the month!!

[polka123]

cd 2

Chiro - Happy Anniversary - hope it was good

Velveteen - Happy 5th b-day to your boy :

Adina - woohoo

Annie- : sorry about your Mom....

mimid, kathteach, squeakermansmom,
May-lily, Ary99, MamaBug, Johanna, waiting4baby, L'Nayim ,
Kyle/Sean, ST, fenwickmama, djs_girl517, celesterra, Alexis
& ((((hugs))))))) - did I forget anyone? speak up :LOL

ugh, I got my huge packet for the RE yesterday - complete with the "Menu list" with prices & all :LOL
My Appt is not til Aug 2. Anyone want to compare prices for hell of it... PM me -

My DH really thought this might have been the month

oh well. we carry on. DS will be 2 yo in approx a month. the kid cracks me up