I am *so* annoyed, disapointd, you name it. I was really hoping this was the month. But oh no, so now it's onto more clomid, and IUI.Yeah I know I said we were going to do IUI last month but we screwed up our schedule, and dh works odd hourse, so there you go.
Oh and I got this gem from my mother "It's selfish for you to try to conceive, because alicia's baby is supposed to be mine, god doesnt want me to get pregnant, but wants her to be (even with smoking drinking,etc). Oh yeah and god doesnt want me to get pregnant cuz the birth will kill me because I supposedly have a heart conditionand am short?!! WTF
She hasnt had a day of med school in her life, and she's known we've been TTC for over three years and never mentioned this so called medical advice, so what? She didnt care about my health before? THe entire team of cardiologist, reproductive endos, etc at a university hostpital have looked at my heart with TTC in mind and it's fine. aparently she either thinks i'm too stupid to think about my health or she's being manipulative. Must be the latter.
Oh yeah and all this time mom was saying this she knew the baby was ej's and that he will never sign teh release papers for us to adopt so wth. Not that it matters, as ej would give the kid a great life, he's wanted to have kids with alicia for years, etc.
I swear Im never talking to my mom again, this is not an isolated thing, it just makes me realize that she's toxic, and likes to make people so miserable they literally cant stand life, that's how she gets her jollies, seriously.That's it, i'm not putting up with this crap any more, I'm done with her.
So overall I'm having a really crappy time, but as with all the other horendous crap my mother has done to me, i'll survive it. I'm sorry if i'm bringing everyone down but just needed to vent and know that you'll understand.