30+ TTC 1 yearish JULY - Page 12

[Ary99]

Bad porn and tiny plastic cups: these are the things I always dreamed of when I thought of creating my family.

We have to do a couple of new sperm tests. I need to call today and have the stuff for the DNA fragmentation sent our way (there are only two labs in the country that do this test, so we will be UPSing sperm to South Dakota). Then we have the cups for a lab downtown. They were kind enough to tell us that we can do the deed at home, but that the sample has to arrive within 30 minutes. We do not live 30 minutes away from downtown. With traffic and parking, 45 would be a safer bet. So, please watch for us on the news as we will be the couple shamefully led away by police for getting it on in our minivan while our son watches Barney. Seriously, I have no idea how we should do this. I guess I could ask a neighbor to watch DS, but it still doesn't solve our, uh, timing issue.

[kyle98sean02]

Annie. I am sorry your mom is giving you such a hard time I have had to slowly rid my life of toxic people and its hard, but you do feel so much better. Its gotta be even harder weith it being your mom.

chiromama~ Happy Anniversary!!!!. My 9th anniversary was on the 6th You dh sounds great. Can he come over and role model for Scott?

Adina I cant believe its getting so close

Polka. A menu huh :LOL

Happy birthday to your son Velveteen. kyle wants a baby so bad and constantly asks us when he gets a sister. He told us not too long ago not to worry, he asked god for a sister and I had a baby in my belly and it died. So he's asking again and again until she is born. I swear that kid knows way more about the world then I do.

May-lily July 11 and March 8 are my hard dates. I will light a candle in honor of your little one.

squeakermansmom. Will he be tetested soon?

[Ary99]

May-Lily, somehow I missed when I read your post your comment about your due date. I had a really hard time on mine and please know I'm thinking about you. July 4th for me will never be the fun day it used to be. I understand what it must feel like when you look around and see two year olds thinking what if. . .

Happy Anniversary, Korin

[May-lily]

Thanks you for the support. It was actually not as bad as last year...last night I went outside by myself after dh went to bed and looked at the moon. I had just read something in a book about the moon being where sould live, so I looked at the moon and blew it a kiss and went to bed.

Chiro: happy anniversary. I think Ryan should do workshops around the country, or even the world. You get to live a glamorous lifestyle and dh's learn how to behave!

Adina: so exciting, yeah!!!

Annie: eek, that's rough coming from your mom. I hope things get better in time. My parents were very toxic, but I'm learning to take the good and leave the bad.

Ary, I hope the logistics fall into place. How about a babysitter for your kid and a hotel room near the lab for you? At one clinic I consulted there was a nearby hotel that even gave special rates to people in treatment!

Velvet: happy bday to your son...I've heard a bunch of stories about children talking to god. I wish there was a child I was close enough with to get them to talk about it to learn more. In the meantime, as I've written before, I ask my little friends to send me a buddy!

cd9, started temping again and bought opk's. The only other time I sued those I had no luck...if you have any advice, please share!

hugs

M

[mimid]

Saw the doc...

Made another appointment. Grrr! Everyone knew what we had to do but DH scheduled a lunch appointment for him and the doc wanted to get my blood test results back befor eI take the progesterone. So, he said we can come in next week to go over the meds. What a pain in the a@@!! :

The best part was that dh had to get his infectious disease screening done. So afte they took my blood (3 vials after a fast) they took his (2 vials, no fast) and he wouldn't roll down his sleeve until he whined to the doctor about getting injured. So the doc says, "Well...after all the stuff we put Miriam through, I told them to make you suffer a little." Of course, then they both had to start their RE humor fest. They spent 5 minutes about how big, dull, serated, etc. the needle was and how DH had to inject me and they preferred that the needle goes all the way through and punctures the chair. : It is like DH found his humor equivalant! The doc even asked me if I knew I would be getting stand-up medical service. This, of course, was after he did a really bad translation into Japanese of "With G-d's help you'll continue" So, August 2 I get to learn which magic formula I get to inject. He did say it will be one of the subcutaneous ones so I am comfortable doing that.

Is anyone else getting nervous as they progress further along? I mean, I am just about a month away from being pregnant, but I'm getting nervous, too. KWIM?

to all!!!

[Ary99]

Thanks for the hotel idea! that might be crazy enough to work, especially considering I have family (my sis coming to town next week) who could watch DS. The timing would be right.. .

[squeakermansmom]

got a + on a preg test yesterday and again today. i'm 13 dpo but since i've had 2 chemical pregancies and a m/c in the past year, the only word i would use to describe my current state is cautious. esp after the s/a w/ 0% morphology and finding a study that said recurrent m/c could be linked to men with poor morph. not that i'm not grateful to have a bfp, i'm just terrified that it will end in another loss.

mimid - i think i missed a major post, are you doing IVF?

velveteen - Wish your son a Happy Birthday for us I know how hard it is when you want to give him a sibling.

may-lily - i also missed your post about this being the anniversary of your due date. i love the idea of the moon.....

heather - we'll retest in 2 months to see if there's any improvement.

adina - so when's the retrieval???????

[AdinaL]

sorry...i didn't post! :LOL

The retrieval has been pushed back...seems that my ovaries didn't go quite as gangbusters as they were expecting....

So I go back in on Sunday...and get more blood work and another u/s and then they think I will trigger Sunday night for a Tuesday retrieval. So...a little more delay - but not too much.

E2 level: 1612
Lining: 8mm
Follicles: 8 or 9 measurable good ones on right side. Couldn't tell how many she said on the Left - I heard 5, 6 or 7. But don't know for sure.

[djs_girl517]

Jodi - I don't want to say anything for fear of jinxing. So, just know that I'm thinking about you.

[Velveteen]

Kyle98sean02; thanks for understanding. My ds asks for a new baby quite often. That is just killer!! How I wish I could do that!

May-Lily, I'd like that little buddy too! Also, with the opk's, remember to use them in the afternoon, not the a.m. I write the day# on mine so I can keep them for comparison. I can see the line getting darker that way.

And Squeak; I will be cautiously exhuberant for you. I can't tell you about all the women I've read about on FF and another board, who have losses, but ultimately they have that precious child. this is it!! Bless this baby, we want you here!

Adina, I am really really excited that things are getting so close!

Korin, happiest of anniversarys!

Jo, how ya' doing?

Lexie, are you moved yet??

I am so tired these last couple days, it would be so nice to be hopeful about that. But maybe its too many carbs.....

[Johanna]

Jodi - I will be thinking LOTS of sticky thoughts for you, sweetie. We're here holding our breath right along with you.

Velveteen & Heather - Totally understanding about the sibling thing. Marshall is constantly talking about wanting a brother or sister. And what we'll do WHEN we have one. Nice that he's optimistic. I hope none of us have to wait long to get that extra family memeber. Velveteen, I'll be home soon so if you want to hang out or something please let me know (johanna14 @ gmail. com).

Miriam - thinking loads of positive thoughts for you!

Korin - thinking about you and your family weekend. Happy Anniversary and I hope any family talks go swimmingly for you.

Polka - you make me want to design a Infertility menu LOL!!!

Adina - I never thought much about it. The worst most men have to endure for the IF process is an orgasm. Oh. no. whatever will they do. :| I mean, seriously, if their biggest complaint is bad porn.. well, they just need to shut up Glad you'll be reunited with your sweetie soon and please know I think about you often and am sending as much good energy as I can muster your way!

Annie - I can't believe your mom would be so insensitive. I'm sorry you have to deal with that crap. I'm sorry you had to deal with another CD1. They suck.

May-Lily - Sad was the day I realized that men are no different than children. That whole love thing is just to created just to con you into taking over as caretaker hehe


As for me.. awesome news x2. Looks like I might ovulate after all... if so its kind of weird.. I got almost a + on my opks today and yesterday (lh line was only slightly lighter than the control) but the weird thing is that I'm CD13 on clomid. Whatever. I'm just glad I may ovulate. Other news? I'm going home in 11 days!!!! Brett, the kidlet, the cat and I will all be flying down and staying with my in-laws. I'm pretty happy about being home AND spending a week with my husband (instead of him working working working). My MIL has already agreed to watch the boy so Brett and I can go to the movies and maybe dinner. I can't even fathom what that must be like. Also, I might be going with my MIL to Curves while I'm there depending on the cost. Very good considering I've packed on 15lbs. Now I have what equals two of my son on each hip. *sigh* How depressing! Pass me the meth, gotta lose some weight (j/k!!!!!) Anyway.. So I'm pretty stoked

[May-lily]

Squeak: yes!!! lots of sticky sticky vibes to you.

Johanna: I'm glad you're leaving soon, you sound so psyched for it!

Hugs to all

M

[mimid]

Jodi! Keep us posted on how you're doing! I'm not doing IVF but I'm goping to be using Bravelle and then we'll be doing an IUI. We might also be using progesterone depending on how my levels look.

[Ary99]

Cautious congrats, Jodi! Keep us posted. We all have our fingers crossed.

I'm on a holding pattern, what for the RE to sign consent for us to send of for our DNA fragmentation test. I'm hoping he'll do it before our consultation on the 23rd fo August. I'd rather be discussing results than spinnign our wheel until then.

[Annie]

Jodi Cautios Congratulations That's wonderful news! :

[waiting4baby]

Hello everyone!

I'm back at work after three days of rest post-surgery. The surgery went just fine - everyone was very nice and I had an all woman team. The nurse, the doctor, anethesiologist, everyone in the operating room was a woman!! Anyway, I was at the hospital at 6am, came home around noon, and then slept until 7pm. After dinner I went to bed early and slept for another 10 hours. On Saturday I felt great!! No pain, no weird bleeding, nothing! Didn't even have to take the tylenol with codeine (it's still in the tamper-proof container). And, we are hoping that this might be the one thing that does the trick! Since the surgery may mess up my cycle, we are just going to try on our own this cycle without clomid or IUI and "see what happens."

Korin - Happy anniversary!!!! I hope you and Ryan had a wonderful day!!


Jodi - Thinking lots of sticky thoughts for you!!!!!!! : : : :

Ary - I hope the test results are ready for your meeting - I HATE to be spinning wheels!! Each follow-up appointment feels to me like another opportunity missed! Hope the results are good!! And, a sexy hotel encounter! That could work so much better than all the bad porn the boys complain about! :LOL

Johanna - Soooooo glad you are getting back to the States! You need some sunshine, girly!! The weather here in Washington has been so lovely and so good for my soul!

Adina - Hope the retrieval goes quickly and painlessly! And, that you get lots of golden eggs!

Annie - Your mom sounds awful, awful, awful!!! When will hurtful people ever learn to shut up?? : We can't choose what kind of family we are born into, but at least we can change how OUR children will be treated, and to give them the love and support they need.

Mimid - Yes, I understand that nervousness. Everytime I think we are getting closer to getting pregnant, or might be pregnant, I think "what the heck am I doing??? Raising a baby is going to change everything!!!" But then, I remember how wonderful all those changes will be . . .

May-Lily - Blowing a kiss at the moon is such a touching image! for the "anniversary."

Velvet - Happy birthday to your son!! It's your experience that makes me feel so close to women with secondary infertility. It's hard enough to desire a child for you and your partner - it would be even harder to have a child who yearns for a sibling and to not be able to promise him or her one.

Heather - Your son Kyle sounds so smart - he just keeps asking and asking and figures something will happen. I wish I had a little one with a closer connection to the "powers that be" to act as an intermediary! Perhaps I should ask my smaller friends for a favor . . .

for anyone I missed. Thanks for all the support!!

[chiromama]

Back from my long weekend with family. It was fun. I decided not to discuss the infertility with them. My mom knows, and that is all that I need right now.

May, Hope you're hanging in there

Jodi and :

W4B - glad the surgery went well!

I'm pooped. Night everyone!

[squeakermansmom]

hey everyone. still pregnant, hope is starting to creep in..... i think i've decided to assume that this is a healthy pregnancy until proven otherwise. i'm doing a lot of praying and hoping and visualizing and praying some more. i still worry constantly but i'm trying to push that out of my mind. thanks for all your great support.

w4b - so glad your surgery went well and i hope this is what works in bringing you your child.

[AdinaL]

That is awesome Jodi!!!

Retrieval tomorrow. I am so ready to get these eggs outta me and get my ovaries down to their normal damn size. They hurt....

[MamaBug]

Adina Everything crossed for you and a positive outcome

Jodi Hoping that this is it for you!!

polka & Annie I am so very very sorry


Korin Happy Anniversary! Hope this coming year brings you both good news!

wb4 so glad the surgery went well

chiro hope things went well for you!

Velvet happy birthday to your little guy! My oldest ds wishes and prays daily for 3 things, that daddy does not go to Iraq, the we all stay healthy and that PLEASE give mommy another baby, so I know how hard it is to hear.

May, Kyle, Ary, mimid, Johanna and everyone else to all of you.

Since Fri life basically sucks for me. Dh is away for 3 weeks with the Army. He thought he was leaving on Saturday and we had all day Fri planned out. Well he screwed up and had to leave on Fri, which is what I had on the calendar. So that started a bad cycle of events. Topped off last night by my alarm going off at 11:36 pm while I was on the phone with sil, calling the police and FREAKING out so bad that I could not sleep until 5am. Got on the horn to my parents in NY and then spent over 8 hours in the car retriving them from the ferry so they could stay and protect us! No one tried to get it, according to the cop the alarm apparently is bad and I just could not be here alone for 3 weeks, so I made them a deal 1.5 week here so the boys can finish the roller hockey season and then 1.5 weeks at their house until dh comes home. I am CD25, 10 dpo, and will test on Saturday if I have no dip. I REALLy want to be able to greet dh with good news as I will not be talking to him much in the next 3 weeks ( he will be in the field alot, he is a DI). I don't feel pg at all and I am beyond tired, very cranky. Thanks for listening and I hope this is the month for all of us! :