Yessiree folks, it's that time of the year, when slip from Wacky Widow to the Weepy Widow 
Though D-Day isn't until December 3, I'm feeling the onset earlier than anticipated. Probably because I was planning a trip to California this week. It would mean spending Thanksgiving and Death Day with my mother-in-law and her family. Thanksgiving is kind of *our* holiday, it was the last one we celebrated together as a family and the day after Thanksgiving is a sort of anniversary for us ~ it's the day he truly *parked* himself in my life and didn't leave til death took him.
Last year, I took the kids to CA over Thanksgiving. I thought it would be cathartic to be with his family on such an important day. It was the most bizarre meal I'd ever had.
I wanted it to be a happy memorial, loving time. Instead, my mention of Mitch went unresponded to and everyone else just danced around the fact that he was absent. Though I am longing to give it another whirl, I just cannot do it this year. I know MIL will be terribly disappointed, but I *have to* cancel our trip. I don't have the emotional/mental strength required for the long roadtrip and the stress of the week long stay in her home. It's never a vacation for me to go there, it's an incredible amount of stress on a good day ~ this is not the time for me to *add* stress to my life.
SO, we'll be going to *my* family's celebration for Thanksgiving, they've been well trained
to handle my grief and they're not afraid to talk about our obviously, sorely missed Mitch. I don't know what I'm going to do on the actual D-Day, I don't want to curl up on the couch and cry like last year, I'd like to begin a tradition with the kids this year... I've got a week to think of something.
Thank you all, my wonderful MDC support system... just knowing I can put this out there makes the weight much less
~diana
for now, but 
ild again soon!
Though D-Day isn't until December 3, I'm feeling the onset earlier than anticipated. Probably because I was planning a trip to California this week. It would mean spending Thanksgiving and Death Day with my mother-in-law and her family. Thanksgiving is kind of *our* holiday, it was the last one we celebrated together as a family and the day after Thanksgiving is a sort of anniversary for us ~ it's the day he truly *parked* himself in my life and didn't leave til death took him.
Last year, I took the kids to CA over Thanksgiving. I thought it would be cathartic to be with his family on such an important day. It was the most bizarre meal I'd ever had.
I wanted it to be a happy memorial, loving time. Instead, my mention of Mitch went unresponded to and everyone else just danced around the fact that he was absent. Though I am longing to give it another whirl, I just cannot do it this year. I know MIL will be terribly disappointed, but I *have to* cancel our trip. I don't have the emotional/mental strength required for the long roadtrip and the stress of the week long stay in her home. It's never a vacation for me to go there, it's an incredible amount of stress on a good day ~ this is not the time for me to *add* stress to my life.SO, we'll be going to *my* family's celebration for Thanksgiving, they've been well trained
to handle my grief and they're not afraid to talk about our obviously, sorely missed Mitch. I don't know what I'm going to do on the actual D-Day, I don't want to curl up on the couch and cry like last year, I'd like to begin a tradition with the kids this year... I've got a week to think of something.Thank you all, my wonderful MDC support system... just knowing I can put this out there makes the weight much less
~diana
for now, but ild again soon!
Do you have pink fever?? How's Dane??
