a new member and glad to have found youI am new to the group and am very much wanting a homebirth this time. I am 26 weeks pregnant and have been researching homebirth for months as it is all new to me. I am perplexed and distressed at this point because my doctor says she really wants to work with me, and really wants me to talk with the CNMs at her practice but I'm still afraid that it all will come out the same (hospital-wise) even after I tell her everything I want and don't want (sharing my birth plan,etc.) in the way of routine procedures and tests (both prenatal and during labor and delivery).
I am so glad to have found this group of women I had my other three babies at a local hospital. I was unnessisarily induced all three times. Everything turned out ok, but it wasn't what I wanted and I want this birth to be better. This is our 1st reversal baby too. I am very protective at this point- especially of this baby, and my body and fertility. Very priceless to me and I am so thankful to have things restored again and the privilege to even be able to give birth again. (I concieved 8 weeks after my reversal surgery and am in awe, to say the least.)
I know that time is running out and I need some real peace about it. I have been reading so MUCH and trying so HARD to become informed that I have been getting nauseous and sick again, and diarrea too. I don't want to stress about this. I was really enjoying this pregnancy until I thought about going to the hospital to give birth again. I really feel strong that homebirth (mainly unassisted birth at home) is for me all the way around, and my husband has been reading about it as well and feels pretty good about it -although a bit unsure still. We are learning together and he is very understanding and can visualize us being home and doing it just fine. He just said to me this morning, "You have to go with your gut feeling, babe." And he knows that it is being home with just us and our children. No other way seems to fit in my mind- it turns me in knots just imagining a hospital birth again with all the "help" and "checking" and all. I want to be left alone. I delivered naturally and with large babies (8,9,10 lbs). I am as healthy as a horse and my body has just done so wonderfully with pregnancy especially this time around. I am so amazed at the miracle of pregnancy and birth.
Until I found you all on the net by diligently searching, I felt there was noone to talk to about these things and it has been eating me up.
I live in Georgia and I have a dd-10 yrs , dd- 8 yrs, ds- 7 (in August), and baby boy due late Oct-(early Nov)-married for 12 years- 30 years old/husband 35 years old